Think, think, think. What will happen next? Maybe nothing, maybe everything. You can't escape it. The thinking. It gets the worst of me. Constantly thinking of the worst scenarios. Fuck. I just want to rest. For once at least. I want to feel free. But there are thoughts, that are stuck with me. Never leaving me alone. Being busy helps me a bit, but when I'm not, it gets to me. What if this, what if that? Every move I make is scary because I overthink it. I just can't stop. Decisions are the worst. I can't just be comfortable with my choices, because what if everything turns bad? I can escape it. At night. When I sleep. But even when I wake up I feel exhausted. It is even worse when I dream. I just find myself thinking about those things for a couple of weeks after. No. I'm lying. It's months and even years. I just want some peace. But I'm stuck with my thoughts. Forever.
Fuck you, my dear thoughts <3
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