Chapter 1: Happier before

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Sammy's pov
I walked up to my Lord Bendy. He looked generally mad I was even around. "What Samuel," He said. "Sorry M'lord, but if you could please call me Sammy, that'd be very much appreciated.." I said. He looked back at me. "What're you gonna do about it Samuel?" He asked. "I- I'm not gonna do anything, I guess." I said, I hated my name so I usually went by Sammy, but M'lord can call me whatever he wants. "Exactly, now fuck off before I change my mind about sparing you.." I did exactly as he said to do. I ran off before it got bad. I sat in my office and at around noon - nine pm it was peaceful.
                        *knock knock*
  I was awoken from my little day dream. "Yes?" I asked as I opened the door gently. It was Henry he was unhappy looking. "Hey..your little lord, just walked out the front door. He left you." Henry said he grabbed the door and slammed it shut. I opened it and ran past him. "WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" He called. I kept running. I ran to the projector room, and quietly opened my sanctuary. I shut and locked the giant door. I cried softly as I sunk to the floor. 'Of course he'd leave you! You should be surprised he didn't before, be happy the others haven't left yet.' My thoughts rang like a school bell. 'Be happy he even talked to you today..' I shook my head as my heart rate quickened. 'You should just die Sammy, it's not like anyone would notice.' I shook my head but more violently. 'Do atleast one cut Sammy, just wear a shirt to cover it.' I thought about it for a second. "Maybe..maybe I should.." I mumbled. I looked over at my desk. "The blade is still there..from when Shawn was trying to cut something.." I mumbled. 'Stop Sammy, it's not that serious.. the love of your life just left you that's a-' I looked back up at the blade. I stood up and grabbed it, gently slitting as small cut into my wrist, I couldn't stop though. I kept slitting my wrist then I went to my other wrist and the exact same thing. I felt dizzy and light headed but just decided to grab something to cover the red blood coming out of my wrists. I grabbed a hoddie and slipped it on. "See I'm fine," I whispered to myself, my voice kind of raspy. I took my mask off and shook of all the extra ink. "Stupid game anyways." I whispered. I fell over and felt more dizzy then before. My whole world was spinning, the spinning got faster and faster, till I closed my eyes and everything went back to being dark, cold, and empty, every second of this terrible nightmare, was hell. I mean I was already in hell, but this was worse, at least I loved someone, even if they could never love me back, even if I was scaring my self with the feeling of falling for someone, it was better then this. I woke up to knocking on my sanctuary door. "Yes?" I called. "Sammy open this door NOW!" I didn't recognize the male's voice on the other side of the door. "Who is this exactly?" I called. "It's your god damn brother and you're gonna let me in this god damn sanctuary of yours NOW!" They yelled. "Fuck off I'm trying to sleep!" I lied. "Oh...sorry Sam." He called. He left gently with each foot step as the door to the projector room slammed shut. I lifted myself up slowly into a position I could get out of here from. I waited a few hours, then left. "Hey Sammy! What's with the hoddie?" Henry asked. "I'm cold." I lied. He nodded. "I guess it is kinda cold in here. Sorry your cold!" He exclaimed. "Eh, not your fault." I said I walked by him. "Sammy? Where are you going?" He asked, he followed me. "My office? I forgot my headphones are broken." I felt bad lying but it felt so nice to have the pain. "Oh okay...see you later around dinner time? I know you can't eat but I like seeing you there. Where'd your mask go?" He asked. "I took it off for a while..." I said grabbing my headphones and tucking them into my hoddie pocket. "Okay.. will we see you at dinner tho?" He asked. "No." I said. "Why?" He asked. "Because Henry." I walked into the projector room. "Because why?" Henry asked. I felt like a teenager. "Can't you just shut up Henry I want to be left alone.." I said. "Just like before." I said again. Henry left the projector room calling my brother and parents. "Fuck." I said. I hear yelling running up the stairs. I ran into my sanctuary and shut the door making sure it locked. "SAMMY OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!" My brother called. I didn't respond. "Sammy please." My mom said. "Can you guys not treat me like a five year old, or is it impossible, I'm twenty fucking three.. I don't need my god damn parents and older brother to come by and knock on my door." I said. I still felt like a teenager. 'Are you serious? Henry is the most observant, you spoke with him ya fucking failure?' I'm starting to hate this voice the more my family knocks on the door. "Sammy...please..we're wor-" I left through a wall and made a huge thud in another room to make them leave me alone. Then I went back to my sanctuary. "He must of left.." I heard them say gently closing the door to the music department. Leaving my entire floor unsupervised. "Fucking peace." I mumbled. 'Not entirely peaceful now is it?' The voice in my head rang. 'Can't you please make me real Sammy? Use the ink machine to help you! Or put your hand in a puddle on the floor..I'll help you..I'll guard you...I'll be there, for, you!' Being stupid I put my hand in the puddle next to me. A male appeared next to me. "See I'm here now~ you don't need Bendy when you have me!" The male said. I buried my face into his chest, maybe he is better then M'lord I mean Bendy. "Maybe you can help me..." I said. "M'lord.." I whispered. "See we can be just like you and Bendy, but I'm worse for everyone around you~" M'lord said. "That sounds nice.." I said. "You may call me Liam~ Liam blackout." My new lord whispered. "Okay lord blackout.." I said. Liam chuckled. "That sounds amazing Sammy... You fucker.." Liam whispered. Even tho I made him, I had no clue what he was like, a few minutes ago he was just a voice in my head, who had of course told me I should die but... that's okay, that's what's sexy about him. "I'm gonna date you...okay~? So that little Bendy fuck gets jealous that someone actually loves you. Instead of being a flaming piece of shit, he'll be jealous of us.." Liam whispered. "But he's not as sexy as you are..~" I whispered. 'What the hell did I just say!? Lord Bendy isn't gonna be very fond of that..' I thought. "M'lord..I will do anything you wish for me to do..~" I whispered. 'What the hell, Sammy! Why are you talking like that. Your Lord is..Liam. I mean Bendy Ugh what the hell is going on..what is happening to m-' Liam bit deeply into my shoulder drawing blood. "O-ow m-m'lord that hurt.." I whispered. Liam bit deeper. "O-oh fuck that hurts M'lord stop.." I said. He didn't stop everytime I whined like that he bit deeper. When he let go, I felt my self get noticeably dizzy but the cuts on my wrists were gone. I walked over to Alice and past the fuck out. When I woke up I was laying in the infirmary. "Sammy what happened to your shoulder?" She asked. "M'lord bit me.." I said. She looked up at me. "Bendy isn't here though?" She said. "I meant L-liam. M'lord Liam." I said. Liam walked down the stairs. "Baby~!" He yelled running down the stairs. He tackled me into a hug. "This is M'lord Alice!" I said. "Sammy..your lord is Bendy not this Liam guy. What's Bendy gonna think..?" She asked. "So what he never loved me anyways, he always treated me more like trash than a human being, and Liam loves me. If Bendy doesn't like that remind him it's his fault for leaving." I said. My head was fucking burning but I didn't wanna think much of it. "Sammy what the hell is wrong with your eyes." She said. "I'm controlling him~.." Liam said. "Fucking shit Liam. Leave Sammy alone, everyone knows he loves Bendy. Leave now, and let me talk to the r-" Alice managed to get out before getting slapped by Liam. "NO! THE REAL SAMMY WILL...N.E.V.E.R...COME BACK..UNDERSTOOD?" Liam yelled. "Y-yes.." chocked through tears. 'LIAM!' My mind wouldn't let me say what I wanted, god I feel dumb now. "S-sorry Alice." I managed to whimper. Liam picked me up and set me on my feet. "It's o-" Liam slapped her again. 'STOP..PLEASE STOP.' but I couldn't say it. It was still like I couldn't. "Sammy and I have an agreement..if Bendy comes back Sammy dies." Liam was lying through his teeth I never made that agreement. "You controlled him into that!" Alice said. "Actually it was before my control could kick in..~ He made the agreement..!" Liam lied once more making me cry inside but smile and nod outside. "S-sammy...?" She cried. "Come b-" Liam slapped her hard enough to knock her down. I started to shake but he kicked me. "M-m'lord Alice isn't t-trying to be mean it's okay..." I whimpered through false excitement. All I could think is..'Even if Bendy hated me...even if I knew he'd never love me..I was..H A P P I E R  B E F O R E...'

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