Remus began playing with the hem of the girls' school vest, giving her the best puppy eyes, "but they're gonna kill me," "my point exactly, the longer you wait the more difficult it will get. And besides, I am almost positive that they will support this," "have you met James and Sirius?"
The two boys in the cupboard looked at each other questionably, "unfortunately but I have faith in them," "I'm not ready," Remus sighed as Jocelyn sat on his lap.
She kissed him on the head and said; "Take your time dear." In which he responded; "Thank you, darling," he smiled.
After a few minutes of comfortable silence, Remus broke it, "hey Joss?" She hummed in response, making Remus' neck vibrate.
"Can we?"
Jocelyn's head shot up in surprise, "really?" He nodded enthusiastically, "but we did that yesterday." James' eyebrows frowned, trying to understand the couple's vague conversation. "Oh come on, Please?"
"But we've only got about 15 minutes?" "I'll be finished in 10."
James and Sirius's eyes widened twice their size.
Jocelyn giggled, standing up. "NOOOO!" James ran out of the wooden doors, revealing himself to the two.
"What the fuck?! What are you doing here?!"
"I KNEW IT! I FUCKING KNEW IT! SIRIUS I TOLD YOU!" James yelled frantically.
"How did you get up here?" "We floated," Sirius shrugged, "so how long have you guys been.... ya know..."
Remus stood up as well, "What we're not-"
"Yeah right! With the letters and whatever interaction we just witnessed you two are SO fucking!"
Jocelyn paced slightly, running her hands through her curls. She ran her hands down her face, readjusting her circular glasses. "You two are idiots."
"Ok, fine so if you're not fucking, what were you about to do?" Sirius crossed his arms.
"Chess!" "What?"
"I was teaching Remus how to play wizards chess!"
"Fine then what about the letters?" James said mirroring Sirius.
"We-I-Remus, um," Jocelyn stammered.
Remus sighed, "those letters weren't for Jocelyn, they were addressed to me. My neighbour and I, starting seeing each other over the summer. I wanted to still talk to him so I gave him the Potters address and Euphemia has been owling them to Joss, addressing them to Joss. He-"
"He?" James asked, feeling absolutely terrible.
"Yes, he!"
"Remus," Joss said attempting to defuse the situation.
"I wasn't ready to tell anyone so I asked Joss to hide them and- and. I'm gay. So yup, great now you know, congrats." He quickly said, gathering his things and leaving the dorm.
"Oh, Remus!" Joss called out sympathetically. She rushed as she ran over to her shoes, frantically putting them on.
"Oh, Joyce,"
"NO! 'You think you've seen me mad? You've got something else coming to you. Black." She tied her shoe. "I hope you two are happy with yourselves. Breaking in, forcing your friend to come out! Going through my stuff! I look forward to telling mum about this one James."
"No, no, no, no, no I'm sorry, ok, I'm so so sorry! Please don't tell mum!"
"I'm not the one you should be apologising to. Now, get. out!" She hissed as her brother hurried out of the room. "Joyce," Sirius said in barely a whisper, "I get that you hate me but Remus? Really? What? 'You came up here to prove something? Well, it's proven. You're just as ungrateful as you were 3rd year, now get away from me Black. Before I do something we'll both regret."
He lowered his head slightly, catching a glimpse of a black spot on her collar. That's when he felt it, something I felt rarely, maybe even never. Remorse.
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JOCELYN WALKED, LETTING HER feet guide her. She found herself where she was just a few hours ago, she and Remus were laughing, not aware of what was about to occur. And funnily enough, it seemed that Remus had the same idea as her.
There he was, sitting completely still, staring off into the distance. "Rem?" She said softly. "I can't believe I just came out to two out of my three best friends like that. I had it all planned." He started to saw in a whisper. She sat down next to him, as he continued to talk.
"I was gonna sit them down after the first Hogsmeade trip. I was gonna tell them how much I appreciate them and tell them how much of a help you were. Explain the whole story, calmly, with no tears and no rambling. Just tell them and come what may. But It didn't go to plan. IT NEVER GOES TO PLAN!" He broke out in a rage. He began pacing, yelling out at the top of my lungs.
"WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?! WHY DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE ME? I DON'T UNDERSTAND! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! WHY DIDN'T IT GO TO PLAN? EVERYTHING IS A MESS! I WASN'T READY, I WASN'T READY!"
"I wasn't ready." Remus finally stopped screaming and pacing. He turned to face Jocelyn. His eyes were puffy and red. The scars on his face were swollen from the aggressive tears that were just streaming down the boys face. They had stopped for a moment until;
"I know but you did good, Remmy," Jocelyn whispered comfortingly.
That's when it hit him, like an ocean of emotions swallowing him. He broke down in her arms and cried. Remus sobbed so hard, it may have ripped the space-time continuum, creating a tsunami. The way he was crying, broke Jocelyn's heart. How could this boy, this beautiful boy hurt so much? This boy had made Jocelyn laugh so hard, smile so soft and feel so comfy. He gave her everything she needed and more, she loved him more than anything. The love that she felt for him was so strong, it consumed her inside and out. She wanted to protect him more than anything. She couldn't protect him from this and it made her livid.
She was his platonic soulmate and he was hers.
NOTE FROM YOUR FAV: • hey alexa play beautiful boy by john lennon *cries* • Ok this high key broke my heart :") • James freaking the fuck out when joss mentioned Euphemia is canon, prove me wrong. • Also, does this count as a plot twist idk • Have a good day, hotties ‼️
