past | wilbur soot angst

part one

"like i can" played through my ears. it hurt so much. i just can't describe i thought we had something special. i really did. "they may be lovers who hold out their hand. but theyll never love you like i can" those lyrics  really resonated with me. i showed that boy all my love. all my passion. all my hope. just for him to take it for granted. but i can't be mad  at him i never will be able to. the books we read together, the walks we shared. those moments are unforgettable. and somehow he is just so forgivable. he ruined me but if he came back i wouldn't look back twice. my sister tried to warn me about him. he wasn't good for me. our entire relationship was rocky. at the start i ran away, scared of commitment and i knew i would hurt him. but to my surprise he followed me. he didn't give up on us. even when i did. but never the less he left. he stopped streaming, blocked my number and closed his dms on all other platforms. i haven't seen anything about him besides his music releases. "your sister was right","saline soloution","jubilee line". if they were about me that's one thing we had in common. the love we still shared. but all good things must come to an end, no matter how hard you try to stop it.