bang bang!

Major ninth

you view the highest peaks and not
the verdant valleys below, you hang
the china on top of the raised cabinets
you got the loudest sighs, while I eat
dust between the kitchen walls
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you got blazing hair like a sunflower
scorching the cool, wet grass
you stand above the graveyards
of the ones who raised you
I'm by your window, fixing the neighbor's roof
like it's a fucking job hanging on a ladder
shadows follow you and haunt you
but you forget they brought you here
you count food as beer, you eat seductively
with the tease of the Spring rain
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under chessboard skies, you play the queen
dropping pawns until
the sun salutes you
while I tremble in its light
you say you're going places
I say use me as a bridge
since there is no one left
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I'll sleep under your bed
I'll crawl back inside your memories
and leave you in an emotional mess
you got sapphire eyes
but you're on level with the diamonds in the sky
dropping them all for the glory
of your fake friends
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I want to be your reality again
you hide your skeletons, I'm in your closet
you see the shirts and boxers you wear
when no one's home
they were mine, you admit you're an top class actress
I know your real name, all your milestones
you sleep in a Californian king mattress,
I'll sleep under it
I want to crawl in you and leave an emotional mess,
I want you to help you know your real name
the one you didn't make