I sit here and question Why?
Why do I feel this way? I'm genuinely happy with who I am and what I'm doing so why? why must I feel the way I do?
I'm a kind hearted person I'm always there for who needs someone , it makes me happy when I put a smile on there face. I'm good optimistic and courageous and I love to help. putting myself first sounds like so much work and being there for someone else... Well that just seems better it just seems easier than focusing on me. Focusing on what goes on in my head. I know this and yet... I still ask myself why do I feel this way?
It's probably because being there for someone hides the fact that I don't know how to be there for me. Maybe its the fact that being there for someone else is a distraction of what's in my head. If I put my focus on what's wrong with someone else then I wont have to deal with me. Maybe if i push my thoughts to the very back or hold in everything that bothers me everything will turn out fine... right?. Wrong. You'll never be able to run from it you'll never be able to hide from you. Sure being there for someone is nice makes you feel good but as you're giving them advise practice what you preach. Take your own advice and maybe just maybe one day... You wont be able to say "why do I feel this way?".
