𝙋𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙂𝙞𝙮𝙪𝙪 𝙏𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙤𝙠𝙖 ♥︎

/𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑋𝑋𝐼𝐼/

I hate remembering the past. Recalling all of my actions.

Because then I start rethinking everything...
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  Rethinking? Yeah. Hard to say, but I'm numb.

I hate remembering that day, not because it hurts me, but because I feel horrible; it doesn't sadden me anymore.

I feel nothing when I remember that day. Not anger, sadness, regret, or anything...

But, I also don't want to forget. I feel so...

Conflicted.

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"You can't just forget about her like this!" I argued.

"She could still be out there, lost!"

"We can and we will. Let her suffer her consequences."

"But okaasan, we can't! She's still so young"

"She knew what she was doing! This conversation is finished!" She yelled.

I was frustrated. Furious. My own family had already forgotten her existence.

Not a single effort to help find her. I knew something was wrong. The second she left the table; I had a feeling.

  Now, look. She's been missing for days.

  The only lead we had was the Slayer who last had contact with her.

  But they didn't know where she left too.

  I slammed my fist onto the table.

  I can't just give up! Yuna come home!

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  What was that?

  What a strange dream.

  I rubbed my head confused at what just happened.

  It was as if I was in someone else's body.

  I looked around my room. Why was I here?

  I can't be sleeping during the night! I got up running to get my haori.

  I felt a shot of pain through my stomach.

  I fell to my knees holding my stomach. The pain was unbearable.

W-What's happening?

I should be fine by now! I was told I'm fine, b-but the pain I'm feeling right now. It's unbearable.

I dragged myself grabbing my uniform. I used my nichirin sword to help pick me up.

  I can't be laying around like I have no responsibilities. I slid open my door.

  I made my way to the entrance leaning on a wall to support me.

  I kept pushing myself. No matter how much it was hurting me.

  I wasn't going to let another person down.

  Step by step my vision began to darken and become blurry.

  "Yuna-Sama! You should be in bed!" the nurse came running to me.

"I'm fine! I was released not too long ago" I replied.

"Yuna-sama, the doctor hasn't cleared you yet!"

"What do you mean? He came in and told me?" I stopped in my tracks.

"Looks like it's worse than what we thought." The nurse let out.

  "Worse than what we thought? What are you talking about!?" I was confused? I was cleared to go back, but?

  "It isn't worth trying to explain right now, I'll assist you back to your room."

  W-what? Worse than what we thought? What does that mean?

"W-wait! I deserve an explanation right now!" I demanded.

The nurse looked rather worn. Her face had pity.

"Yuna-sama, I recognize you want an explanation, but please understand we only want your best interest, your body is much weaker than you think."

Her words stabbed me.

"Are you... Calling me weak?" I said gently.

"Oh no, Yuna-Sama, I meant your body is damaged much more than what we originally thought!"

"You wouldn't survive any demon in your state."

Thou I wanted to protest, she was right. Every move I make hurts me.

I could barely walk, but I still pushed myself to get out and fight.

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"I've had this natural responsibility, that pushes me further."

"Don't you think this responsibility can lead you to your death?"

"Maybe, but it's only a fraction to those who have suffered. It would be my leniency." Yuna explained.

"Maybe this is silly, but most hashira rather die fighting than to sleep comfortably."

  "Some more time will do you good."

  "How much longer should I have to wait?!"

  "Due to your mistakes, more lives have been put in danger to your incompetence."

  "Please, Yuna-sama..."

  "Don't Yuna-sama me! I-I, have better things to do than sit here and listen to you!" Yuna violently got up and left.
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  The nice warm blankets oh how they felt. It was almost natural to me...

  For days I've been having what I thought was real, but they happen to be dreams. From when I thought I was cleared to talking with someone.

  I haven't denied my health. It seems most of these dreams portray why it's important to rest.

  This is my first test to getting stronger.

Hi guys, sorry for being so inactive; school has definitely taken a toll on me. Recently I've been getting the urge to finish this book before I truly stop writing altogether. <3