As soon as he left tears started flowing through her eyes
She opened her phone & a photo flashed on the screen a photo of tush & her , they were smiling not just from lips but from hearts , they were smiling through eyes , there was no pretending , not for anyone's sake but they were smiling for themselves the mischievious look in her eyes , the love in his eyes , the kind of love she saw today after so many years in sid's eyes
"no no no...what am I even thinking , no one can ever love me like tushi did no one" she reminded herself
She again looked at their picture
"y it always happens with me tushi har baar mere he saath kyu , jiske saath main khush rehne lagti hoon wahi kyu dur chala jata hai , its my fault haina? Maine he kuch kiya hoga that he fallen for me , kisi ek ko he ishq nhi hota hai na the other one did something tabhi ishq hua na , bateein , harkatein kuch toh ki na maine ,its my fault par tushi maine toh usse sirf friend samja tha , I dont want to lose him tushi , even I know that I cant love him but still tushi he is my friend indeed a spcl one I never wanted to see him hurt & that too because of me , everytime I thought my life is on my side it cant hurt me now, it proves me wrong life slaps me so hard that reminds me I cant be happy , Maybe I dont deserve to be , he is so good , the best guy but he doesn't deserve someone like me who cant even give him the love he deserves , he needs someone who can love him with everything she has wholeheartedly but I can never be that girl , he has to understand this I am not the girl he has fallen for the girl he loves its just an act for her family ntg else
I wish tu mere saath hota toh kabhi kisi aur ka question bhi nhi aata
I wish I was in your place that night
I dont think we can ever be together sid sorry but I've no choice
Im really sorry"
She kept her phone near her chest & cried whole night
*****
Next morning:
Sid couldn't sleep whole night after whatever he said yesterday he just cant imagine what she's going through , he know what kind of a person she is she'll blame herself for this too he just wanted to go & tell her that it was not her fault infact its not the fault but if falling in love with her was a mistake than that was the most beautiful mistake he ever did , he was proud of that, but alas he knew he can't go & tell her all this , he didn't shared anything what happened last night with anyone & that was his problem now , anxiety , nervousness ,fear was increasing in him with every passing minute
Thats when he remembered her saying this to him on his initial days of career
"u know sid kabhi bhi restless ya nervous feel ho na drives are the best cure ,it really helps in lifting your mood"
And how can he ignore his angel's advice so he took his keys from the table & went to ash
"u are coming with me now" he ordered her
"wth where"
"umm..drive"
"oh hell yes just give me a minute Im coming" how can she say no to this when she is a fan of long drives
He was waiting for her near his car soon she came & they both left
"so now what is the mess u created "
She asked him while turning the music on
We're only gettin' older, baby
And I've been thinkin' about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
"I dont create mess everytime"he defended himself
She gave him a look of "u better tell me everything"
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you
He was going to defend himself again when he heard the lyrics & he thought yes he didn't created a huge mess this time yeah maybe a small one but not the wrong one
Sid:I told angel about my feelings last night
Ash:ok....wait wtf u really did that , how can u
Sid: I just dont wanted to hide anything from her ashu , when she asked me to not lie & tell her what's in my heart I just felt helpless at that moment , the belief , hope & trust she had in her eyes that showed her trust for me I just couldn't make myself lie to her
She squeezed his hand
Ash:u told her that u know her past ?
Sid:no uska chamce he nhi mila
Ash:how are u feeling now
Sid:Idk, honestly speaking Im feeling so happy , so lighthearted that I told her about my feelings I couldn't believe I just confessed my feelings for her atleast now I know that I dont have to regret in my life thinking I wasn't even strong to say what I feel for her but.....but at the same moment Im worried for her , how can I be such an idiot I knew she wasn't ready for this , I knew that she didn't even realised her feelings then how can I do this to her
But then again I think it wont change anything , I just told her what I feel for her , I didn't committed some crime to be guilty of
She smiled at him understandingly not knowing what to say
Chasing it tonight, doubts are runnin' 'round her head
He's waitin', hides behind a cigarette
Heart is beatin' loud and she doesn't want it to stop
Movin' too fast, moon is lightin' up her skin
She's fallin', doesn't even know it yet
Havin' no regrets is all that she really wants
Hell yes he didn't committed any crime he just cleared her doubts , he gave just a closure to her , she just dont want to regret & he promised himself that he'll make her believe that she won't regret ever giving her heart to him , she dont even know she's already falling for him orelse the things she did for him no one ever did
He thought
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
I know I dont have to be afraid of anything avni u was there with me even when we were just strangers eachother, u was there for me when u known me just through my brother, u was there for me as a friend , bestfrnd & yes I want u to be there for me as my lifepartner but never Ill force u to accept me nor Ill let anyone force u to change your decision Ill wait for the day u will accept me on your own without any expectations, or for anyone else's sake just for your love for me , just for us , just for your happiness , I dont mind whenever that day comes I can wait for u my whole life he promised himself
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you
Ash:the night changed so many things sid , but do u think it will never change u and her
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