Insecure

Chapter 3 ~

 "Darling wake up. Its 6.30 pm already." My mom said while trying to shake me awake.

I sat up groaning and taking in my surroundings. When my mom saw that i was fully awake she started chattering away about her day but i totally blocked her out. I was glad it was all a dream because i know that Emma will never do such a thing she knows how much it will hurt me. In the middle of my thinking my mom found out she was speaking to the wall so she left me to get ready for later.

My mom came back into the room and noticed the bruises in my legs know that I’m wearing such short shorts. "What happened to you Elena Buell?" she asked, her voice filled with authority. I sighed and explained what happened from the part where my phone got stolen to when i was whining like a baby when Shane tried to help me. She laughed heartily when she heard this and gave me her second phone to use for now.

 She left the room again and i stared at my reflection. When i looked at the time i realized i was running late so i left the house and walked to the park. I reached the beautiful rustic gate entrance of the park gawking. The park was beautiful and lively. It was not too crowded and not too isolated. The unseasonably hot day was followed by a gentle cool night breeze as sunset draws closer.

 The sun descended steadily towards the blazing gold horizon. I felt someone tap my back so i whirled around to see Kathryn. She grinned cheekily and said "you're here". "Hello!" i replied joyfully. She was about to say something but when she noticed my scarred and bruised legs a horrified expression dawned on her face. "What happened to you?!!" she literally screamed in my face. I shook my head smiling and told her that i just fell. Not wanting to make the whole ordeal such a big thing. Of course she gazed at me suspiciously but ignored it anyways.

 We walked peacefully quiet towards her group of friends and that’s the time when i noticed her outfit choice. She was wearing the exact outfit she wore in my dream. It is not that surprising to me but i find my condition quite odd. Since i was a young girl i always dreamt of something and somehow something similar happens in real life. Though i definitely do not want Emma and Jack to be together. My mom once told me that the night before my dad died i was crying and screaming in my sleep. She said that i dreamt about darkness, strangers wearing black, crying and my mom fainting. The next day when my mom and i reach home after getting picked up from school. My dad was found dead in his room and of course my mom screamed and fainted while i sobbed not knowing what to do. My mom never told me how he died and whenever i asked she was quick to change the subject.

 Tears pricked my eyes as i thought of these memories still fresh in my mind though it was 6 years ago. However (and fortunately) Shane interrupted me from my silent break down and flash backs when he greeted me. "Hey Ana!" i looked up surprised and realized that we have reached our friends. I noticed Alex, Shane, Oliver, Andy and Jeff together with some other people from school. Kathryn introduced me to the rest. "Hi Elena! My name is Jack as Kathryn said just now." i stared at him dazed he looked nothing like Jack slash my ex slash my best friend but in a way he reminds me of him. Who knows though the last time i saw Jack was 6 years ago.. "Wow! I’m Elena!" i replied surprised.

"Why do you seem surprised?" he asked. I shrugged "i had a dream- " i paused, gulping everyone was staring like i was about to repeat Martin Luther king's i have a dream speech "i had a dream" i continued "about my ex-boyfriend his name is Jack and now i met you it’s quite odd isn't it?" he chuckled and said " I had a dream about my ex too she is called Elena just like you." he seemed sarcastic in a joking way but also serious. Everyone laughed along with him, including me. We all started random conversations while sitting in a circle in the grass. I blocked out the conversations because i was new and i barely know anything about them or the school.

My mind was occupied on my feelings and thoughts bout Jack, my Jack. I loved him so much , we spent so much time together, if only he was here , i miss him so much, if he was- "hey I'm going to buy drinks "said Jack interrupting my thoughts. "i am coming too." i said as i stood up brushing off the dirt and grass on my butt and legs. We walked silently towards a drinks stall in the park.