Nostalgia?
Maybe that’s what they call about this one. As if I am once part of a something.
Alam mo yung feeling na, a certain scent.. a certain gesture, a certain event or a certain person would ignite that feeling once more.
Nostalgia, as defined.. yearning for the past.
Why am I saying such? Cause that’s what I felt now. A feeling is slowly creeping in, sounds scary but its not too sullen to think about. Its just like a certain spark of memory flicker across your mind.
This.. this humid air, this place, this particular time.. habang nag-aagaw ang liwanag at dilim. It was like a feeling an overwhelming feeling, staying close to where I belong.
It was almost two weeks after I went back home. It was way more than three years, nine months and to weeks to be exact after I left. And it seems like those years I spent is like yesterday to cherish, parang hindi lumipas ang halos apat na taon. This place still looks as adorable as it is. Wala namang bago, except sa bagong pintura ung ga wooden benches. It’s quite fascinating how they managed to maintain this place. Apat na taon din halos akong wala pero lahat kagaya pa din ng dati, less of course the people around. Bago lahat ng mukha.
Naalala ko pa nga,how stupid and coward I could be four years ago. In this same place. Bakit nga ba naman napakamemorable ng lugar na to? Simple, muntikan na kasi akong maging masaya, but it turned out sour. nangyari yun lahat sa lugar na to, four years ago.
Four years back then…
.. Haler.. anu bakla bay un? inutos ata lahat ng pagbubuhat sa atin eh.. kung hindi lang siya ang head ng committee na to, tatalakan ko yan na parang manok eh. Haler, hindi ba niya alam na babae tayo? Nakikita ba niya yun? Pakibigyan nga siya ng salamin.. or better yet ask him to consult a doctor. Baka me problema na siya sa paningin..
She was saying those habang hindi magkamayaw sa pagpupunas ng pawis sa noo, she’s actually pertaining to the guy almost 50 meters away from them, hindi pa naman malabo ang mata niya so from a far she could still see that male figure pointing from every direction. It seems like he’s actually instructing somehing… in her entire life ngayon niya lang to ginawa. Mag-buhat ng napkalalaking bato at magbungkal ng lupa
Because she was the class and block president back then, hindi siya mag-alumpihit.. nilapitan niya agad ang president ng committee na to. She doesn’t mind kahit mataas pa ang rango nito sa university student council.. its against her and the blocks will as well.. ang lalim lalim na at ang laki laki nang nahukay nila.. that’s absurd to do the other half of that area sila na ang naghukay, anu ba ang gagawin nila dun? Mini lake sa tabi ng bleachers?.. haller, business admin students sila no.. bukod sa hindi naman pagiging maarte yon dahil sa paghahawak ng pala at pagbubungkal ng lupa.. sobra sobra naman na ang pagod nila.. babae sila no, hindi amazon.. after hearing the instruction sa assistant ata nito, she immediately followed that girl na pakembot kembot pa at ke arte arteng lumapit sa lalaking pinagpuputukan ng butse niya., from quite a distance, nakita niya pa na nagpapa-cute tong babaeng to na hawak lang naman eh, ball pen at notebook. Wala namang kwenta tong babae na to, tatlong beses ng pababalik balik to sa grupo nila at sa pangatlong beses na itinanong niya dito na.. is that team leader slash community head is aware of us being ‘all as a lady?’.. at ang nakakirita, sumagot ba naman ng pagka-arte arteng, I am just here to receive instructions and disseminate. (pwede mob a paki-spell sa akin yung dessiminate?) gusto niyang itanong yan sa babaeng kani-kanina lang eh kaharap niya na sinusundan niya ngayon.. nagmamagaling pang mag-english, trying hard naman.. ke kapal kapal pa ng make-up.. party te? Party to?
Hate nya talaga sa lahat yung.. napaka-kememng babae.. yung napakaarte.. yung sobrang feelingera, proves how big their brain is , after they utter a single sentence.. talking with them is nonsense, kaya she would go and straight away talk to the in-charge itself. She’s actually blazing with fire.. parang torong sinisilihan, the hell why? Trice na balik ng maarteng babaeng na yan, at pa-uli-ulit lang sinasabi niya.. ibig sabihin, trice na silang dinidisregard ng leader na to? I’ll deal with him, sabi pa niya sa block nila. no need to worry, rest muna kayo.
