why do i feel like jealous
if we haven't even met.
why do I feel like you are leaving me
If you never actually were with me.
why do I feel close
if you live miles away.
can't tell if those stories
are jokes or not.
maybe I'm not as independent as I thought.
maybe I do need someone.
deep inside of me I know it.
i know how I hug my pillow wishing it was someone.
i know how I loose my mind looking for a special one.
i know how I wish someone touched my hair
while humming a melody, a song.
i know.
i know.
i know.
but I've built a wall
and my pride doesn't let me break it.
i wait for someone to come and do it for me,
but I'm afraid that only happens in books.
right?
i know i have to talk to someone.
but i'm just exaggerating.
i'm too young, it's just a phase.
right?
i just want attention, like a damn kid.
right?
i don't need love, i can fix myself.
yes.
love is useless, i can handle it.
i can.
you don't need to lie to yourself, you need to learn how to confront reality.
