Our Little Secret

Chapter 1: A Silent Cry

A/N: Oh lookie what we have here, a re-write? Yep. That's right! Whether you read the original version or not, Enjoy! ~

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Just another long day of school and Guardian duty. Yay...my excitement for the same old same old is through the roof. I absolutely loved getting up early in the morning after two hours of sleep from staying up all night the day before. Do note my heavy sarcasm.

I hate this.

I walked into the bathroom that morning only to be greeted by a shout from Yuki. Just like every other morning.

"Zero! Get out!"

I glanced at the disgruntled brunette, catching her irritated stare. We stood there a moment before I shrugged, earning a grunt of annoyance. "You can't just walk right in I am a girl after all!" I gave her a flat stare before moving to turn on the shower, adjusting it slowly. "You were just thinking that I wasn't much of a girl...didn't you."

I didn't need to answer that as she just huffed and gathered her bathroom things and wrapped herself in a bathrobe over her underwear and bra, a towel around her neck and the sweetest scent lingering in the air. "Don't take so long and I won't have to barge in."

She opened her mouth to speak but then sighed, reminding herself of the reason she used the bathroom in the Headmaster's suite to begin with. She grabbed her bathroom bag and exited the room, heading to her personal room in this corner of the academy. As soon as the door closed I sighed. As I began to unbutton my shirt and strip down for a shower, I felt the pain and trembling of my limbs make itself known. Well isn't this day already starting off just peachy.

I put one of the towels over the bathroom door handle (we really needed to get that lock fixed), making sure Yuki wouldn't barge in the same way I had. Although I strongly doubt she would. With a sigh I leaned against the shower wall, feeling the water scorch my skin into a light shade of pink. It was a pleasant feeling. But I knew it wouldn't be pleasant for much longer.

I could already feel the daggers digging into my throat. Stabbing until raw and sore. I turned the shower temperature all the way down, hoping that the chill would help me keep sane. It worked for the first minute before my vision began to blur. I felt a sharp pain begin to tear into my throat and mind with such force that it felt link someone was forcing their fingers through the skin. I resisted, slumping over and slowly sitting, my fingers digging into my shoulder. A stronger wave broke through my careful hold, dark thoughts squeezing my already fragile will to stay put. Red pulsing behind my eyes as if to urge me to find what I wanted, what I needed. I bit my lip, tasting the familiar metallic blood on my tongue. I had all but forgotten about the freezing water that rained down from the shower. I had a moment of what felt like clarity, a dry laugh escaping my lips as I thought that one bite couldn't hurt. Just a little. Just one. Just-

A sudden loud knock on the door jolted me from my thoughts. "Zero!"

Yuki.

"Zero come on, we have to go!" She said through the door.

I took a moment before answering, needing to make sure I didn't say something stupid. "Yeah, whatever. You go on ahead!" I took a moment to review what I said. It was shaky and sounded a little forced but through the bathroom door and over the shower, I hoped that she couldn't hear it. After what felt like an hour of silence she called back an okay and I could hear her retreating footsteps down the hall.

I sighed in relief, thanking every god in existence that I didn't bite her this time.

That thought disturbed me. The fact that often when I'm like this it ends when my teeth pierce her neck. But not as much as the idea that Kaname would have an excuse to kill me if I hurt his Yuki. The thought left a bad taste in my mouth. She was mine...I could...care...for her more than him. He may have saved her as a child but there's no way she truly loved him. No, not like I...I cut my thoughts off there as another wave of agony fell into my senses. The pain wasn't as unbearable as it had been before but it still hurt.