Monolouges

Alice Walker

My name Alice and i am the nicest person you will ever meet. I share every thing i even share my food until i get hungry and don't have any food yet . Until i meet the nicest boy then i fucked up my life.My life was going great until i meet that boy. I had A'S and all of that i was never late tardy or absent. Until i meet James he was nice at first until he started asking me to skip class but you knowing me i will do any thing for a beautiful and nice boy. So i skipped class with James and that was the worst day of my life. He started asking me to have unprotected sex with him and i was No at first but he kept kissing on my neck then i pushed him off of me he looked me deep in the eyes and said bae please this will be our first time lets make magic. Ok i know i fucked up but if you saw James you would want to have unprotected sex with him too. Thats when i woke up and saw me in James bed i was like OMG did i stay the night he said yea bae then gave me a kiss and when i tried to leave he said please don't leave me bae so i stayed and told my mom i was with Shelley my best friend. Then when i did leave my stomach started hurting like it was cramps and then walking my way home i threw up people looked at me like eww and i tried to run but i kept getting cramps so i just walked fast. So i started to think maybe i was getting my period and then i thought about maybe i was pregnant but i was like nah because me and James had unprotected sex only one time i think because i woke up and his bed so i don't know what he did to me when i was sleep. Thats when i went to the doctors and they told me i had HIV i was so scared i asked him can he cure it he said unfortuntatley not so i started crying that i had almost peed on myself i had to think because i only had been with one person and it was James i think. When i tell James that i have HIV he will be so mad at me. I started to call James he picked up on the first ring and said wassup bae. I started to smile i almost forgot what i had to tell him.I told him that i went to the doctors today and i told him he need to get tested he asked me why. I told him because i got tested today and it came back negative then he started crying and said im so sorry. I was getting confused because i was the one with HIV. Then it hit me he had HIV and when we had unprotected sex for the first time he gave me HIV. I started crying my eyes out. I told him i cant believe you did not tell me all that time we been together you did not tell me you had HIV. I hung up and started thinking damn i am pregnant and have HIV im thinking damn my life is fucked up.