Time: 12:20am PST
Today me and my friend were having a heart felt convention about life and it's starting to get to me we were talking about how we both think our life is just a big simulation and that nothing is actually really like how we are being drugged through the air and the reason drugs are illegal is because it shows us what the world is actually like
It's been getting to me all night but that's because I'm a over thinker.
Another thing that happened it my mom and step dad were lecturing me for no reason they keep telling me I'm selfish and I don't deserve what I have and to be totally honest I'm starting to believe them I mean I never asked to be put in this world I never asked for a roof over my head I never asked for friends who care about me I never asked for any of this yet I still got it and still complain. sometimes I wish I wasn't here the reason I feel I am selfish is I'm complaining about all those things and I wish I could be better and I try so hard but I'm not trying hard enough.
It's 12:30 am and I have school in the morning tomorrow is dress as your favorite character day my friends and I are going as Micky, Julian, bubbles, and bubbles cat from trailer park Boys. I'm glad I have them because if I didn't my life would have ended a long time ago but because they saved me I now have a attachment to them and I can't even be in a separate room as them in school without having a breakdown yet my teacher purposely puts us in separate groups all the time because "well talk to much" when I barely even talk in school because I'm afraid that I'll say the wrong thing and everyone will hate me and my friends will leave me
Sometimes I want to be a fairy you might be asking"why would you want to be a fairy they don't exist" that's the entire reason they don't exist I mean it's totally fine if you believe they do but I don't want to exist.
Time: 12:50
Words: 400
I didn't feel like writing much tonight
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Non-FictionI'mma right these when it's late at night and crying each chapter will be another night the name of the chapter will be the date(๑'·.̫ · '๑) Also if you are feeling like death is the only way please tell a friend or message me and I can talk with yo...
