To Have You In My Arms

Jiang Cheng POV 1

A/N: This is only a fanfic, all credits go to the original author of MDZS MXTX. This was written in one sitting and have not been edited or beta'd. I also finished this at 3am so expect mistakes. Please point it out politely and I will edit this once I have the time. Thank you for reading and giving this a chance. :D A bit following canon but I'm bad at remembering things and this is a fic so please forgive my inaccuracy. Edited.

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Jiang Cheng stared at the closed Hanshi, his eyes weary and tired as he watched the silhouette of his Alpha as he mourn and punished himself after the events of that night.

Yes, even after years of lies and denials his heart and body never let go of its claim for the older man. Despite parading as a beta and walking with his chin held high among the cultivation world, inside his soul burned as an omega.

Creatures thought to be born as delicate, future bearers of society meant to be protected but also viewed as weak. That was what Jiang Cheng was. But as stubborn as he was, of course he trampled against it and desperately held onto a lie just so he can make his mother proud and not get that disappointed look from the eyes of his father.

But as always fate has a cruel way of fun with him and at their presentation, while Wei Wuxian presented as a powerful Alpha without any problem, here he was clutched in pain after a delirious heat followed by his presentation as an omega and without any ado he was hidden and instructed by his mother that from that day on he was a beta.

His soul was sealed, his scent suppressed and a weakened link with his family. Jiang Cheng learned the pain of isolation from that day. However a sunlight peaked through his dark days when they went to Cloud Reccess to stay a year to learn from the righteous Gusu Lan grandmaster Lan Qiren.

There standing beside his uncle, who was observing all the new disciples learning that year was the esteemed Zewu Jun, the first jade of Gusu Lan. And the rumors did the man no justice. He looked like a God that came down to grace them mere mortals with his heavenly presence.

The man was glowing with his handsome face and white robes that seemed to repel any stains of the earth from dirtying it. But more than that, his smell was divine. For Jiang Cheng whose nose was impaired from the sealing and could hardly smell any pheromones – which helped his disguise as a beta – this was the first time in forever where he could smell an Alpha's scent and he swore he could feel it encircling his whole body enveloping him in its warmth.

Their eyes met that day and his heart was forever stolen. A smile was given to him and he could feel his cheeks burn. His sealed omega was clamoring in his soul begging to escape and run towards this man but he stayed rooted to the ground as realization hit him.

This man. This magnificent man in front of him was his. His soul mate, the missing piece of his soul.

The thought both made his heart soar and dread. He could picture it, living blissful days surrounded by blue flowers and clear spring lake while their children played in the grass, devoted to his husband and family. And the sadness that gripped his soul as his mind reminded him that such dreams are impossible.

He was to live his life as a beta, heir to Yunmeng Jiang and future Sect Leader. Omegas are not leaders, that is not the path laid for him.

So as much as his heart yearn for the Alpha, his Alpha, he cannot abandon the life that was instilled in him since that day. He was not an Omega. This man is not his. Why would he be? He was the pride of his clan while he was a disgrace, an average man that's struggling to rise against his clearly better Shixiong.

His confidence was too broken and his soul too shackled for him to just announce to this person that he was his. So he clamped his mouth shut and entered the Cloud Reccess without smiling or looking back to the man who stole his heart.