The Day She Said Goodbye

CHAPTER 18

Friday ngayon which means it's our P. E Day nakatambay lang kami ni Finn sa may field dahil lunch break palang namin at masarap sa pakiramdam ang hangin nakakaginhawa.

"Ahmmm Finn may sasabihin ako wag ka sanang masasaktan ha ." "I said to Finn because he deserved to know that Spade is courting me i don't want him to get hurt but this is the only thing i can lessen his pain by telling the truth at para narin mas makamove on sya ng mabilis.

" I can't promise that i wouldn't get hurt Bri pero susubukan ko so what is it?. "Finn said

" Spade is courting me Finn. "i said to Finn at humarap sa kanya para makita ang reaction nya.

" To be honest with you Bri it hurt pero wala naman akong choice kundi tanggapin yun sino ba naman ako diba I'm just your mere friend and if you love Spade it's ok with me as long as it makes you happy. I choose to like you Bri at alam kong kasabay ng pagkagusto ko sayo ay masaktan ako but don't worry I'm ok, I'm fine. "Finn said and he flash a sad smile or should i say a fake smile because i know behind those smile there is sadness and pain.

"I'm sorry Finn kung hindi ko kayang masuklian yung feelings mo para sakin." i said habang nakayuko nagulat naman ako ng may biglang humawak sa ulo ko at bahagyang ginulo ang buhok ko.

"Hey don't be sad ok lang yun gaya nga ng sabi ko sayo kung san ka sasaya dun rin ako gusto kita Bri gustong gusto kaya kahit masakit pinapalaya na kita pero always remember that i will always be here for you." Finn said at tumayo na inilahad nya naman ang kamay nya sakin kaya tinanggap ko yun ngunit  nagulat naman ako ng pagkatayo ko ay ang pagyakap nya sakin ng mahigpit" Kahit saglit lang Bri hayaan mo akong mayakap ka kahit ngayon lang because i know this will be the last time that i can hug you. "Finn said at ramdam ko ang sakit sa tono ng pananalita nya naramdaman ko naman na nabasa ang blouse ko kaya alam kong umiiyak si Finn ngayon at nasasaktan akong nakikitang umiiyak at nasasaktan sya dahil kaibigan ko sya all i want for him is to find his happiness.

" Someday mahahanap mo rin sya Finn the girl that will love you unconditionally the girl that will make you smile and the girl that will make your heart beat fast." I said to Finn reassuring him naramdaman ko naman na tumango l sya sakin.

"I hope so Bri."He said at kumalas na sa yakap" Thank you Bri for letting me to like you thank you for giving me light thank you for saving me it means a lot to me Bri mauna na ako sa class ha . "Finn said at naglakad na napahinto naman sya ng tawagin ko sya.

" Finn thank you also for alway be there when i needed someone to lean on thank you so much Finn for all those chikahan moments with you."I said ngumiti naman sya sakin ng pilit" Can we still be friends. "I ask nervously

" Of course Bri. "Finn said pero alam kong imposible ng mangyari yun dahil i can feel that from now on there will be a barrier between us and i know na iiwasan na nya rin ako and i understand him he need to move on and for him to do that he need to forget me. Ang sakit lang na wala na ako makakausap mamimiss ko sya sobra.

Nang makapasok sa gym ay agad kong nakita si Spade na patungo sa direksyon ko.

" Sab kanina pa kita hinahanap eh. "Spade said habang may hawak na cheesecake milktea na hindi ko alam kong saan nya nabili binigay naman nya sakin yun at buong puso kong tinaggap yun

" Thank you for this but why are you looking for me. "i ask enjoying my milktea

" Cause I'm worried. "he said hindi ko na sya sinagot ng dumating. ang professor namin sa P. E

" Good afternoon class so we will be playing volleyball . "Our prof said nagsitanguan naman kaming lahat. Nang matapos ng ipaliwang ni prof ang lahat ay pumwesto na kami magkalaban kami ni Spade

" Be careful. "Spade shout and all of my classmates tease us meron pang nagsabi na sana all may jowa pakiramdam ko ay lalagnatin ako dahil sa sobrang init ng pisngi ko.

Nagsimula na ang laro and it went so smoothly not until may nakabato sakin ng bola i don't know what happened next dahil sobrang sakit ng pagkakabato sakin dahil sa totoo lang ikaw ba naman ang mabato ng bola tingnan ko kung di mayanig yung  buong utak mo . Napahawak ako sa ulo ko dahil pakiramdam ko ay mawawalan ako ng malay umiikot na ang lahat sa paningin ko.

"Sab are you ok saan ang masakit tara sa clinic." Spade said but i just shook my head.

"No I'm ok medyo nahihilo lang Spade ." i honestly said habang nakapikit ang mata.

"Sir excuse muna po si Sab." I heard Spade said to our prof tinanong ng prof kung anong nangyari at inexplain naman ni Spade sakanya lahat mukhang nagaalala si prof kaya tumango tango rin sya.

"Take her in the clinic." i heard prof samuel said.

"Tara na Sab". Spade said ng makalapit sa akin nagulat ako ng buhatin nya ako in a bridal style wala naman akong magawa kaya kumapit na lamang ako sakanya. When i saw a bench just few walk outside the gym sinabi ko kaagad kay Spade na dun nalamang kami.

"i don't think i need to go to clinic Spade i just really need to rest for a few minutes." i said to spade tumango tango naman sya at dahan dahan akong binaba.

"Maayos na ba pakiramdam mo Sab.". He said ng makaupo rin sa tabi ko. I put my head to Spade shoulders.

"Don't worry about me Spade I'm perfectly fine." i said to him

"I was so scared the moment i saw the ball coming to you Sab pupuntahan sana kita kaso natamaan ka kaya dumiretso nalang ako dun sa ng bato sayo at sinuntok sya sa mukha he pissed the fuck of me why would he hurt you ang tanga nyang tumira ng bola hindi sana masarap ulam nila mamaya gagong yun." He said and i can hear that he is really pissed. I didn't know na sinuntok nya pala yung nakabato sakin.

" Hey your so bad hindi naman siguro sinasadya ng tao yung nangyari." i said to him

"I don't care no one is allowed to hurt my baby atsaka ang mahalaga naipaghiganti kita." He said napangiti naman ako roon. Ilang minuto ang nakalipas ng may naramdaman akong likido na tumutulo sa kamay ko ng tingnan ko ay para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig napahawak pa ako sa ilong ko at dun ko napagtantong nagnonosebleed ako ngunit hindi ko alam kung bakit.

" Sab anong nangyayari bakit may dugo Sab teka lang  dadalhin na kita sa clinic fuck baby hold on". Spade keep saying words but i can't hear anymore my eyes are getting blurry and in one snap nakatulog ako.