today is worse than yesterday, i'm so hopeless, i realy don't know what to do, i want help, but on the other side, i don't want it, i don't know, i'm confussed, i don't have control over myself, everyone thinks i'm a drama queen and that i don't have problems, but it's not that easy, i can't do this anymore, i feel like cutting myself is the only option my pain goes away for a while, and i wan't to go to heaven, but the people who i left here on earth, like my mom, dad , best friend, and boyfriend, they would be broken, but i can't do it longer in this way.
