So it all started with a youtube chanel,it was normal and nothing was wrong with it,Haruma (the person that did the chanel)is an Asmr Listener account,but that was not the problem of everything..
(btw bijin means beautifull people)
Hi my name is Ace and i just wanted to write a story about everything in the server what happened cause i said it in a discord server but i only was allowed to write 2000 words or something there,like i didnt tell everything there and yea so i wanted to do it here..
So like i said Haruma Fromme is an youtuber with 6.18k subscribers and 52 videos in his chanel but its today (12/05/2021).So yea im one of the people that was one of his first youtubers so i was his 26 subscriber.but ofcourse there are many people that are one of the first ones like coco,holly,iza,luna,and ches. i love everyone in the server cause who doesnt love it ? Haruma started to do his first premier and ofcourse i was there, i was in every premier but not in 1 or 2 cause our time is diffrent like it lways did a premier where it was 1am and ofcourse i was sleepy. but the one thing that made me more scared was my age, but wen i joined the server on discord i felt very comfy in there! but the thing was there werent that many people but it was fun texting there,after some days iza asked " how old are yall?" everyone was older but i was 10 at that time,iza was and is 11 years old well im 11 now ,everyone accepted me i was very happy about it.
At that time,Haruma didnt text that much because he still needed to know about discord and writed his scripts and filmed himself for new videos.some people started calling but only 2 people were in a call at that time.
A time later where he hitted 500 subscribers he made a special video:
https://youtu.be/mhAHSqlQX4s thats the link
so like at the end of february or someday at the start of march the first mod came,shes like a sister to us cause she always took care of us that we stay happy,she is super nice and more.
"Yay! we have 80 members in the server!" did i say in the chat and everyone was happy,but sadly the chat got a bit dead but me and holly were the people that were online the whole time,tbh i think it was very funny.
after a time the server got rules but the only rule that doesnt exist anymore is "please dont speak other laguages than english cause it can make people feel like they are left out" well at that time i invited my bestfriend named Mason and we talked the whole time in german and Haruma said to us that we need to speak english, or he is gonna kick us out it was so funny cuz the only thing we talked abt was what we did on bsp (a game).
but the server changed a bit...
some people started saying they havent eat in days and it made me very sad and after everything was okay again,holly said to iza that iza needs to tell the chat "i need some time for things..evrything,imhappy to text you all but i need some time."even people talked about depression again then...
(TW: this can trigger people : some days later after that charmer texted us for help cause she said that she accidentally stabbed her stomach and there was much blood everywhere i was only 10 so i didnt knew how i can help so i couldnt help)
so after that what happened of charmer haru made 2 servers and the first and the second one as diffrent things
1server: the original
2server:venting server
3server:nsfw server
after like 2 or 4 days everyone started texting only at the nsfw server but the thing is i already knew the most of the stuff cause school already told me about it and i hated it,after some days (btw sorry if i skip days to much cuz at those days it was normal)haruma called with us all the first time, it was pretty fun but yea.it was pretty normal for a long time. but it felt..diffrent...
on the 27.03 haru finally hitted 5k and at the 20th april he hitted 6k but at the 22th april everything was a disaster..
more people got mods and at the start i thought it was a good idea but 1-3 mods started saying and asking "why are young people here?!?" or "9 year old people suck" oh and "shut up" but the thing they were 9 year old too and image if they tell you to shut up or that you suck and the thing is if its said 1 day on your bday well it happened to me at the 23rd april yea..
and one thing.. why did y/n or eiji yelled at my bestfriend (shes named honey tea rn) and the thing is she vented after some mins ago.
at that time the most of the people were mean here and haru asked "pls tell me the truth,i wont get mad and dont kick you out i promise" but after i told my age someone kicked the most of the people out
23rd april
my birthday was a horror,the server was the only server where i felt like im enough,like there was everyone that i trusted but after i got kicked out i didnt stop crying for like the whole night and today the 23rd april but the thing is we have something in germany where when peoplesay happy bday before the bday the person that has bday gets unluck but like the only people that made me happy at that day did i trust but i still missed the server and always asked people if haru said something when we are allowed to come back but it was to long for me so i changed my pfp and name to friend my friends that i trusted and tried to ask them what happened at the time i wasnt there,but when i came there only were 4 people online but only haru texted.i said hi,but i saw on the old bijin chanel that haru sended a video where it said "i think its time that everyone hate me" so he texted me back but i felt like he got a bit diffrent after that,i really liked the old server more, and the sad thing is that someone deleted the old bijin server and i really was happy backreading and yes i read everythig from the start till the end when the chat is dead.
so ow everyone pretends now nothing happened but it was one of the worst days ever i cant forget shit easily,it was one of the worst birthdays for me. everything changed.like i still think abt it,was it my fault? why did i even say when my bday was.the thing is me and mason one time texted in german it was okay and fun but now where the most people talked tagalog was a bit sad for some people and the most of the online people understand tagalog but yea..
im very sorry that i texted that much or made you cry...
but everything here is the truth..
i just wanted to tell this but still i miss the old server.
Please dont be mean this took me 4-7hours to write and think.
(1235 words) Ty
