I thought playing with knife is hard, but if you're desperate like me. wala kang magagawa kundi kumapit sa patalim, it hurts, it bleeds. but what other choices do I have ? I cant prevent this, specially when the world is against me, when every body turns their backs at me when I needed them the most, then acted like i never known them.
this is the most hardest part of life, when you're always their for them, give your hands when they needed you and be a helping hand. but why when it comes to me? no one ever dared to even offer help , was I too desperate to have a friend, a family and a boyfriend that the only thing to have them is to drive them with my money? was I even loved or was I just been used.
I hate that I'm too nice to people, that my heart always melt when I see them cry?
did I done wrong ? why did my life turns into a twisted fairy tale?
so don't judge me if this was the only way for me to survive, I don't have any choice. this is just how life works.
