𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐗 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

Don't Save Me ( Part 1 )

"I want to ask you guys a favor" you suddenly spoke in a emotionless voice as you look at your friends with puffy but emotionless eyes

"Sure what is it?" Eren asked as they look at you worriedly

"If I'm injured during the expedition, or if my life is at risk, don't...save me" you said as you look at them dead in the eyes

"Y/n what are you talking about? Are you okay?" Mikasa asked with concern written on her face

"Promise me, you wouldn't bother to save me" you said not answering her question

"Y/n we cant-" sasha tried to protest but you cut her off

"If you guys save me, I would hate you for the rest of my life-" you said but Jean cut you off

"How can we let you die Y/n? You're one of the best soldiers!" Jean said and the others agreed

"Actually it doesn't matter if I do survive out there, I will just take my own life in here" you said emotionless and the others just gasp in your statement

"Y/n what happened to you? Why are you acting this way?" Armin said worriedly

"I'm telling you guys this because I don't want you guys to bother, even if I have a good chance to live, I wouldn't even fight to be alive" you said bluntly they were about to speak but you did it first

"I have no motivations to move forward, what's the use of being one of the best soldiers? I have no will to live so I might as well die, I'm tired of living" you said as you got up but stopped without looking at them

"It was great knowing you guys in this life time" you said as you left them there

You went outside looking around, when you suddenly saw Petra, you then went towards her but not too close

"Take care of him" you said though you mean it you said it emotionlessly

"Take care of who?" Petra said as she faced you

"Levi, take care of him, and make him happy" you said as you stare off the horizon

"Of course I will even if you didn't tell me that I still would" Petra said and you just nodded

"Good, best wishes to the both of you" you said as you just left Petra there confuse

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All of you went to your position, as the gate was about to open, your friends tried to talk to you but you would just avoid them or just simply not answer

"Y/n please don't do something stupid" Connie said and you just look at him with those emotionless eyes of yours

"Dying isn't stupid Connie" you said as you again look forward and heard commander Erwin to open the gates

"This will be the last day anyone will ever see me" you whispered to yourself

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You encountered a lot of titans already, but your friends killed them before you even can because they're afraid you'll do something stupid

Everything was going well at first when suddenly a lot of abnormal came, you guys rode your horses as fast as possible when Armin suddenly got picked up by a titan, no one was able to move quickly so you did it yourself

You slice its neck making the titan let go of Armin luckily Sasha caught her you were about to land when your ODM suddenly malfunctioned and a titan came and push you hard against a tree nearby

You groaned as your back touches the huge tree as you then fall on the ground with a thud, you just smirked when you felt blood coming out of your head

"So, this... is how I'm gonna... die...huh?" You said as you struggle to speak as you felt blood coming out of your mouth too

You heard your friends coming towards you and Jean trying to pick you up but you shook your head as your eye sight became blurry

"Don't...bother" you manage to whisper before everything became dark

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You suddenly woke up, at first all you see was white so you thought you were finally dead, but your eye sight became clear as you saw the sky above you and felt something moving, you look around a little and realized you were in a carriage

"Fuck why" you whispered as a tear fell from your eyes

"Y/n!" A familiar voice called you look beside you and saw Mikasa and a unconscious Eren beside you

"Why! Why would you guys save me!" You shouted in frustration

"Y/n calm down! We can't just let you die out there! You're our friend!" Mikasa said as she tried to calm you down

"I was trying to make myself feel the fucking freedom! Why don't you guys just give me that?!" You shouted as tears left from your eyes

"Y/n what's wrong-" she said but you immediately cut her off

"Everything! Everything is fucking wrong! I'm tired! I'm tired of fucking living! Don't you get it?!" You said catching most of the scouts attention

"Y/n just calm down okay? We'll help you through this" Armin said as he went beside the carriage

"Like I said armin, even if I survive here, I'll take my own life myself" you said as you glared in no one in particular

END OF PART 1