I'm not a monster... am i?.. (bendy x cuphead)

part 2 (actions hurt more then words.)

⚠️WARNING! SELF HARM⚠️

Bendy's POV:

... It's one cut........ It won't hurt... That much..

-I took the blade of the knife and put it on my arm, I pressed down and whined at the pain, I started to make small cuts on my arm.-

.... Ugh.. I deserve this... I'm worthless..

-I then heard someone come into the bathroom and run the water I froze and quickly put my knife away and rolled down my sleeves.-

..... Shit.. Just...... Just.. I'll be ok.....

-I came out and quickly walked passed another taller male and I then went back to class.-

[Time skip to after lunch cuz I'm lazy and tired.]

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-I was walking to my classroom to get my things because it was time to go home but.... I ran into someone.. And it knocked me down, I looked up confused and saw a kid who used to be a bully but has changed..-

Oh-! Sorry you ok?.

-He said while looking at me, I just looked down and nodded.-

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-I looked down without saying a word he then reached his hand out to help me up?.. I looked at him Hesitating but I grabbed his hand and he helped me up, before I could thank him tho he ran off, "Jeez better things to do much?..." I thought to myself.-

-I sighed.-

Get my things and go home.. That's all that matters right now...

-I walked into my classroom I thought it was empty until I grabbed my bag and turned around to see cuphead sitting in his seat with his head down, he appeared to he asleep?..-

... Hm.. Guess he fell asleep?.. Why here tho....

-I was lost in thought until I looked at him once more, "..He looks cute when asleep..." I thought to myself but quickly shook my head to get that thought to disappear, "what the fuck what was that bendy?." I then thought.-

...Ugh.. Dear Satan..

-I walked out and walked home, it had stopped raining at least, I went inside and saw my older sister ivy asleep on the couch I went upstairs and into my room, I locked it closed my blinds and undressed, put on some shorts and a T-shirt, I then lied on my bed and fell asleep.-

(i then woke up again after I fell asleep only... i wasn't in my room anymore, I was in a dark place in my bed.. i couldn't move... I thought to myself, "what the hell.. I hate dreams like this.." I then started hearing voices of my sisters and Boris?... And a few others..they were all telling me to do horrible things to myself and others... Then I heard a familiar voice... It was cuphead's?... It was the words he said to me earlier today... I wasn't frightened, I then felt breathing next to me on my arm..before I could look over I woke up..)

!?... Ugh... What the fuck..? What is going on with me....... I'm so thirsty..

-I got up went down stairs and got a glass of water took a couple drinks and I kept thinking about.... "Why did I think cuphead was cute when asleep? That doesn't make any sense." I thought and looked down I went back to bed.-

Cuphead's POV:

-I got out of my bed and looked around, I couldn't sleep all I could think of was that stupid midget.. I don't understand why.....-

... What the fuck is going on with me... I need to sleep....... Why is my mind on that Short fucker.. Maybe mugs would know..... I can't sleep... He..... That midget... Bendy was it?.. He..... I can't get him out of my mind........ All I remember is that terrified expression on his face when I slammed him against that locker... I feel.. Sorta bad now.. Ugh I'm so stupid.... Here I am talking to myself rambling about some weird school student, some nerd.

-I decided I would play on my phone until I fell asleep, after a while I fell asleep and later I woke up in the morning, I sat up my hair was all messy, I looked down plugged my phone in and thought to myself, "fuck...first thing I think of again is that midget.... What's gotten into me?."

-i sighed.-

Ugh... Fuck man.. My head hurts..

-I then looked over surprised to see mugman asleep next to me, "bad dream?..." I thought, I got up and got dressed as mugs was asleep I went into the bathroom and grabbed a hair brush and I fixed my hair, brushed my teeth and went down stairs, I got some chips, my sibling ray was sitting on the couch watching TV.-

.. Hey ray morning?...

Oh hi cup.

-they replied.-

-I then looked down lost in thought, I went into my room mugs was gone, I sighed and sat down on the side of my bed, I looked down and continued to think about bendy... I don't know why.. I then weirdly thought of his face and how innocent his eyes looked and his cheeks looked soft to touch thinking about this made my face turn pink, I noticed and quickly shook the thought away.-

What the fuck... Why am I blushing.. Because of that midget... Just by thinking about him... Better yet why am I blushing at all he's another guy?.. He's not attractive.. Not to me anyway.... r-right?.. UGH!.. stop it..stop it cuphead... What is wrong with you and your nonsense.. There's got to be a reason why I'm acting like this.... I feel so weird not hate or.... Sadness... And I won't admit a liking towards him, because I don't like him, he's another male and it would be wrong.... It........ Would... Be..... w-wrong.... What's wrong with me... I.... There's got to be a reason...... He's just so... So.. I don't know.. I can't stop thinking about him tho... Why can't i?.. He's just some other student in the same school of me.. Woowwww! such a big deal Cuphead.... Wait.. I.... I'm not... Gay?....

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... Am I?.......

Eyy next part even tho I'm lazy as hell.