Babysitter

See ya beautiful

"pan, you okay?" Justin said and took my hand in his

"okay yea, im fine. What i'm about to tell you is something i havn't talked about since I moved"

"Pan it's okay if you don't wanna talk about it"

" no I want to" he nodded

"So when I was about 3 my dad walked away from us, I don't know why. I was only 3 but when i was 15 he came back and I was happy to see him but very mad at him. He would get drunk all the time and smoke. He did beat my mama and I. He called me things, slut, fat, ugly, whore. he said things to me, you're never gonna find a man because you are such a slut, nobody never will love you. I hated him. he made my life to living hell.

I mean yea i'm not the skinniest gitl or the prettiest girl but slut! whore! hell I havn't even had my first enything. Well he left again when i was 16 soon 17. After one month we saw the news and he was death... he died. I know efter he left he tried to be sweet to my mama but she knew he would do the same thing. He took he's own life Justin!" I was crying so hard right now.

"Panda..." Justin said and hugged me

I just cried into his shoulder

He let go so he could look into my eyes

"Panda, believe me you're not a slut or a whore, you dont look like it and i'm 100% sure you're not" i smiled but was still crying but not so hard anymore

"I personaly think you're beautiful and have an amazing body....I love that your not too skinny but not too fat"

"You have such an amazing personally" He smiled down at me and I smilled back

"You're not all bad Justin" he looked down at me confused

"Well your mom said 'no drunk, girls, parties' so i thought you were mean" he laughed

"Yea i'm not at all she said it in fun but not with the parties"

I then heard jax call my name

"I'm gonna get them and then we can make dinner together?" he nodded with wide smile on his face

"hey jax and jez slept well?"

"yea... Are you okay pan!?" jax said with a sad face

"what do you mean?"

"you have red eyes? why have you been crying!?" jez yelled

"oh I just had something in my eyes sweetie, don't you worry" I said and walked with them into the living room so they could play with something.

Justin

OMG I feel so bad ! I wanted to hug her forever! How can I be so stupid and cry because my dad left us ? urgh

Me and panda... uh I love that name.

We made dinner...she wasen't that good to cook

"Justin you have to put the tomato sauce on first and then what you want on" Pan laughed

Okay maybe it was me who wasen't good to cook but come on its first the things you want on your pizza first and then tomato sauce after right? no? okay.

"omg you're not good at cooking " I pushed her softly

when we were done with eating my mom came home.

Panda

Pattie just came home "hai guys!" I was in the kitchen and the others were in the living room

we all said hi back

"how have it been?" she asked me i looked over at Justin who looked back at me and smiled

"really good. They did as I said" she was really happy about that

"what about Justin ?" I smilled

"Really good he had Ryan and Chaz here. He's a good friend"

"omg good! he likes you"

"what? no we're just friends"

"haha i'm his mother and I could see how he looked out here when i came in" I blushed

"here is 20 for babysitting" (I can't make the dollor thing on this)

"omg thank you!" 

we talked a bit and then we walked out to the door

"so would you like to come and babysit the kids tomorrow?"

"sure and justin!" i said loud so he could hear me

"heeey I heard that pan! " i laughed.

"see you tomorrow" I was about to open the door when someone turned me back and hugged me tight, Justin 

"see ya tomorrow beautiful" he whispered into my ear

"see you Justin" and then I walked back to my house

"hey mama"

"hey hun how was it?"

"can we talk about it tomorrow im tired"

"sure baby, goodnight love you"

"night love you too mama

do i like him? maybe, yea..

but I can't show him