Right In Front Of You

Chapter 12 ~ Worst Fear

Jens POV

'You're pregnant'... 

The words drilled into my mind and I wanted to be dreaming. I've always adored kids and wanted a bunch, but Harry? I don't know.. His wife died pregnant and he wanted to be a dad so bad.. I don't know what he would do if he knew I was pregnant. This timing couldn't be more wrong.

'No.. That can't be right.. A-are you sure'? I stuttered, with my hands on my head.

'The blood test is accurate but we can do an ultrasound to be 100%', he said and led me to another room.

I laid down and just closed my eyes and put my arms over my face.

I though about how I was feeling sick lately and it hit me, I am pregnant and I just started sobbing.

'Yup, it's 100% certain, you're gonna have a baby, the doctor said.

I just turned onto my side, curled up and sobbed.

'Oh, Jennifer what's wrong'? he asked.

'I just met the guy not even three months ago! His wife died in an accident while she was pregnant.. he's just starting to trust me now i'm gonna lose him', I sobbed.

'We can terminate the pregnancy if you wish', he said.

'That's not an option. There is a living human being inside me that I was dumb enough to help create , i'm not gonna kill my own flesh and blood. Asshole', I cried and left the room, slamming the door.

I got in the car and just sat. I wish my parents were alive. I have Leah but she doesn't know how to help me through this because she's never had a baby.

I'm shaking so violently and my breathing is quick and shallow because I am so terrified to tell Harry and see his reaction. I can't lose him.

I just put my head in my hands and took a few deep breaths. I'm not ready to be a mom. But ready or not.. here it comes.

My phone rang, scaring the crap out of me.

'H-Hello?', I stuttered. 

'Hey how are you? Are you gonna be home soon?', It was just Harry.

'Yeah! I'm just leaving', I said and started the car.

'Okay, see you soon baby', he said.

'Bye', I replied and hung up and drove to the house.

I pulled in the grage a half hour later and took a deep breath before I got out.

I walked inside and it smelled amazing.

Harry was in the kitchen and I couldn't help but smile.

'Hi Jen! I made shrimp scampi with garlic butter sauce and angel hair pasta for you', He said and came over to hug me but I just felt weak.

'Oh this is for you', he said and handed me a rose.

'Aw.. thank you Harry', I said and smelled it.

I was just standing there watching him cook.

'Are you okay Jennifer?', he asked.

As soon as he turned around I just buried my face in his shirt and started sobbing.

'Babydoll, what's going on?', he asked, concerned.

'J-just.. hug m-me', I cried.

He did. He held me tight and rubbed my back.

'Jen?', he said after a few minutes.

I let go of him and backed away to face him.

'Harry.. i'm pregnant and it's yours', I cried. 

He looked like someone smacked him in the face.

'Wh..what? Are you being serious?', he asked.

His face was pale and he leaned on the counter.

'Yes', is all I could respond. I had to sit so I sat on the barstool by the counter and put my face in my hands, just like he was.

'Do you know thats my worst fear since Sarah died? Having a woman pregnant with my child? I want to be a dad so bad but i'm fucking terrified of getting a woman pregnant because so many things can go wrong. I lost her and our babies. I can't stand the thought of losing you two also. I am scared as fuck', he said and wiped a tear away. I felt so lightheaded and was still crying.

'Harry please don't leave me alone with this.. We hardly know each other and it would be easier for you to walk away, I know, but i'm begging you, don't leave', I cried.

He finally looked at me and his eyes were filled with sadness.

He walked around the counter so he was standing right in front of me.

I looked up at him and wiped my eyes and he just threw his arms around me and hugged me so tight, burying his face in my hair and holding me so tight.

'Jennifer Lopez, why would I leave you? We can help eachother though this. I never thought i'd say this again... but Jennifer, I love you'...