Paradox • J.Potter •

• XIV •

This is what I needed. With all of the drama going on with my family, a hug from one of my best friends was exactly what I needed to calm the hurricane that was brewing in my mind and ultimately leaving me deflated and alone.

"You probably want to know why I want to break up with her" Sirius sighs and leans back away from the hug. His eyes dart around the common room, as if looking for another lurking in a corner or behind the walls leading to the dorms. He nodded his head once before turning his attention back to my awaiting figure. Coming to the conclusion that we were in fact alone and it was safe to have an open conversation about his love life.

"Well you seemed so happy, so I'm a little confused" I shrugged. It was true. Marlene and Sirius seemed so happy and their relationship seemed strong. Merlin I was expecting them to get married once we graduated and start popping out small little blonde padfoot's. But it was Sirius' life and I only saw a small sliver of their relationship. I couldn't and wouldn't ever know what it was like behind closed doors.

"Fawn-" Sirius chuckled and takes my hands in his again as he leaned down so he was face to face with me and sent me a kind smile that I automatically returned.

"I'm gay" He shrugged and held my hands that bit tighter. My eyes widened in surprise before I smiled brightly and let out a small laugh. This time I was the one who pulled Sirius into a hug. My arms wrapping around his neck and pulling him towards me.

"I'm so happy you felt you could tell me. No- I'm so happy you know who you are! I'm so incredibly happy for you Sirius. I love you" I rambled but I couldn't stop myself. I was proud of him. In this day and age and especially with his kind of family being gay was seen as an illness. Not a life a pureblood should live. But love was love and I couldn't wait to see the man Sirius would introduce to James and I as his boyfriend.

"I knew you'd understand. I knew you wouldn't judge me" Sirius spoke shakily and pulled away from the hug so he could send me a teary eyed smile.

"Why are you crying?" I asked in confusion and wiped away a tear that had fallen onto Padfoot's face. He chuckled and shook his head as he pushed my hand away from his face and quickly wiped away the tears that continued to fall.

"I'm just so happy" he whispered and pulled me to his chest as he leaned back into the sofa and cuddled me.

"You are who you are Sirius. I couldn't be prouder of who you are and I couldn't love you more than I do right now" I voiced and smiled as he tightened his hold on me and placed a chaste and platonic kiss to my forehead.

"You know I love James. He's my brother, he always will be. But for a while before you two had told each other your feelings, I was worried what kind of girl he would end up with. I was worried I wouldn't like her or she wouldn't like me. I was worried she would come between James and I and I would ultimately lose one of the two people who mean the most to me. But then-" Sirius stopped and chuckled lightly, giving me a light and reassuring squeeze.

"But then he told the other person who means the most to me that he was in love with her. And in return she loved him and now I'm not worried anymore. I know James will always be in my life and what's better is that he's marrying my sister. He's marrying my other best friend and the kindest most beautiful soul I have ever met. I will never have to worry about him coming to me crying about a break up, or crying about fighting with his wife. You two are soulmates and I have the pleasure of getting to watch you two being together and love not only each other but me as well. Because of you Fawn I won't ever have to be alone" By the end of Sirius' small speech I was crying. The salty tears running down my face in streams and my arms that were laying on Sirius chest gripped his shirt tightly.