"Well...that's unfortunate because I am taking her out today" he paused "we need to catch up, right Emily?" He smirked evilly. I turned my gaze back on her to see her eyes widened, looking a bit off guard before she smiles awkwardly glancing at me sideways.
"When did we plan on doing that?" She asks looking genuinely confused, I smirked slightly as to how embarrassing this is for him. I mean she clearly doesn't know shit about this so called plan.
I know I sound like a damn child right now but I don't like sharing, and to be honest he was getting on my nerves and im in the mood to knock some fucking logic in his mind if I needed to.
He looks taken aback by her blunt response but it stays only for seconds before he says " I'm leaving in two days so I need to spend some time with you before I'm gone" he shrugs.
"Oh you didn't tell me you were staying this short" she looks surprised, sad maybe?
"I am, i just came to check on you and hang out a bit" he pauses and turns his gaze on me "but looks like you're busy these days" he gives me a once over look before looking back at her.
"Ummm ahh okay can you just give a sec to think?" She stutters and look at me, she nods her head towards the door, gesturing that we need to talk.
I nodded slightly and walked after her out of the kitchen door.
"Jaden?" She asks as we approach the couch in the living room.
"Yeah?"
"I have to go out with him today, can we go out tomorrow or something?" She says softly and i just feel my insides twist, she picked him over me. I feel my blood start to boil, she can't just choose that asshole.
"What do you mean you have to?" I ask trying to stay as cool as a cucumber but I don't see this conversation going anywhere good.
"He's leaving in two days and I haven't hung out with him for so long, plus what would my parents say if they knew he came and I didn't acknowledge his presence?!" She explains but I can't see it that way, all im feeling is disappointment and a bit of anger, mostly disappointment.
"Why can't you do that tomorrow?" I ask crossing my arms over my chest.
"Because...." she gets lost for a second before continuing "because i don't want to turn him down" she says and that's all she needed to say to shatter my heart into pieces. I don't want to pressure her into going out with me but that definitely hurt like a bitch i mean she just chose him. If he was some other cousin of hers I wouldn't mind but that guy is not giving me good vibes, i just don't like him. I feel the sting in my heart at the thought of her with him and the thought of him touching her, playing with her hair, kissing her.
God dammit he's her ex boyfriend! That's something completely different
I can't do it
"So you don't mind turning me down" i stated with a monotone expression, feeling my heart ache and my brain closing off and playing numb.
"W-what?! No! I didn't say that" she looked in utter shock and a bit taken aback.
"You just did" i say coldly looking her right in the eye.
"Why are you making such a big deal out of it!?" She asks and her face just expresses how her temper is starting to rise.
"You know what? Fine! Go enjoy your little date with Mister mammy daddy" I said before storming towards the door, not looking back.
"It's not a date! Where are you going?" She yells after me but i was already holding the door knob by now. I feel the air in this house suffocating me instead of supplying me with oxygen like it's meant to do. Why am I always put as an option?!
People just think that choosing people doesn't hurt anyone but themselves, which is wrong. It's a pain that never ends, a scar that never heals. Sometimes I wonder why are we even put in a position to be chosen from, why is it so hard to be fair? Being a second option is my biggest fears that I don't think i will ever be able to get rid of it, i feel like whenever i try to face this fear my insecurities come biting my ass.
"Whatever" I mumble under my breath before opening the door and lunching out not looking back once.
I'm hurt
I really am
Hello!! Im sorry for the extremely long wait! I had tons of studying and shit and i still do but guess what!
It's my birthday and this is my gift to y'all
I was planning on updating about 5 chapters or sth at once after my finals to make it up to y'all but decided against it when my birthday came to the view.
Anywho I really appreciate the ones who let me know their opinions it really makes me want to be better and don't worry shit's about to happen but I'll not be updating unfortunately until im done with my finals and hopefully that will give me the opportunity to update regularly after im finally done.
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