Be Mine.

1.

I had been awake for hours at this point, just sitting in my bed, legs tucked to my chest... I couldn't move, I was stuck in my head, unable to speak, or even think of moving.. just stuck thinking.
I could feel my eyes burning not just from the tears, but from how long they stayed open. Why couldn't I break myself from it?? Why did this happen so often? It became exhausting honestly to have to cope with 2 hours of sleep some nights, feeling like I'm trapped in my head, the flashbacks.. the constant episodes.. all just exhausting.

I heard a knock be placed on my door, that was what I needed, it broke me free from my head.. and as quickly as possible I flew from my bed and to the door. Flinging it open and hugging onto my Aunt, sobbing into her. "Sweetheart.. again?" My aunt had asked placing her hand on the back of my head holding me close, I nodded sobbing even harder. "Oh Wren.. come on let's go get you some water.." my aunt led me down the hall by my hand, I could smell fresh coffee, and burning toast in the air. As we entered the kitchen I saw my uncle
struggling with the toaster, we needed a new one.. for sure.

I took a seat at the table placing my head down, since my parents died I've been living with my aunt and uncle, and they've been dealing with my episodes.. almost every week since then. I feel bad, but I'm so grateful for them. My aunt placed a glass of water in front of me, I lifted my head smiling "thank you" I mumbled taking the glass in hand, I took a drink. "How many hours of sleep did you get tonight Hun?" My aunt asked I thought for a second "hour and a half maybe two?" I questioned my words, I wasn't sure. I took another drink. "I'm okay now," I reassured her. She took one of my hands into hers, "Wren I can call the school, call off for you so you can sleep.." my aunt offered "no I need to go, I'll be fine Auntie I promise." I smiled at her "If she thinks she'll be okay let her go, Holly." My uncles' voice was sweet, he sat at the table with us, he looked at his toast with a questionable look. "I wasn't hungry anyway.." he mumbled pushing his plate away.

"Havi. I told you the toaster is broken, I unplugged it for a reason." My aunt let go of my hand, walking off to the toaster, unplugging it once again. I was feeling better so I didn't mind that my aunt had dropped my situation, it was better anyway, I didn't want to remember.
After a conversation about my cousins' birthday coming up, and what we were going to do for it, a few jokes, and a nice bowl of cereal. I went back to my room to get ready for school, I took a quick shower, got out and brushed my teeth, moisturized, and did my makeup, and let my hair air dry.
I put on a pair of slightly oversized light-washed boyfriend jeans and a black tight fitted sweater, and a pair of sneakers.

As I was heading out of my room to start my walk to school I got a text.
Message from Pirate✨🍃:
'Get your ass out into the car now.'
I laughed at the message I wasn't feeling 100% just yet... I was at like a 50, but around Kim, I would spring back to 100, He just had that effect on me.

I jogged down the hall and out to the silver 2016 Honda Civic. I opened the passenger door and took my place in the seat. Kim grabbed my face staring straight at me.

"Yes, Kim?" I asked he just examined my face "you've got two black sockets under your eyes Bug, you look dead." He let go of my face and turned his attention to the road, he started up the car and we took off. "So what I look like the dead. At least I'm a cute dead girl" I joked flipping my still wet curly hair over my shoulder. He shook his head "that's debatable" he chuckled. We joked the whole ride and soon I was back to my usual bubbly self, I was ready to start this day off on a better note.

We headed inside and met up with Kim's girlfriend, Sofie. Sofie was a nice girl... But there is just something I didn't like about her, maybe it was the way she made snarky comments when I would engage in a conversation with the two. Or maybe... Just maybe, I didn't like her because she didn't like me.