Back and forth|Jxdn

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"Considering the time, would you like to stay the night?" She asked and my heart went wild at the thought, i just wanted to squeal like a little girl.

"Uh yeah thank you" He smiled and glanced at me as i shot him a grin.

"Okay then I'll go sleep, you can sleep in the guest room with Adam" she explained making her way to the bottom of the stairs.

"Nah it's fine I'll sleep in Emily's room, right Emily?" He said as if it was a normal thing for us to sleep in the same room. I couldn't find my voice as i was still in shock but I nodded immediately, he flashed me a grin before making his way upstairs walking past abby.

I turned around to see a really pissed off adam, his jaw was clenched to the point i felt his teeth are going to break and his hands forming tight fists to the side, he was glaring holes at the back of Jaden's head before stomping to his room with not a single word. I glanced at abby who was still standing by the stairs and gave her a confused look, she looked amused? She chuckled and shrugged before walking up the stairs and i just sighed and walked to the kitchen to get some water. 

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"I got you water thought you were thirsty a-" i was saying as I walked on to a really shirtless Jaden standing by the window. His gaze shifted to me when I walked in, i was too busy taking in the godly defined chest of his that I didn't notice the jerk smirking.

"Take a picture, it will last longer" he smirked, walking towards me.

"Jerk" I mumbled under my breath before handing him the water bottle. He chuckled softly before gulping the whole bottle, damn the guy was deserted from inside or what? I walked into the closet and took my pajamas, making my way to the bathroom so i could change. I closed the door behind me and sighed defeatedly as i looked at my reflection in the mirror.

This isn't me

The girl in the mirror is so fragile, vulnerable and looks way different. Im way stronger than that, I've always been, what happened to me?

Crying over a boy? Setting up fights out of nowhere? And all for what? For something i will never in million years have? The guy is crushing over someone else and as sad as that makes me feel, im happy. To be honest as long as the girl is not Mads I'm okay with it, obviously a bit disappointed but happy for him. So why am I pulling all these stunts? Why can't i focus on myself and get back to being Emily that everyone likes and admires? I NEED to stop being pathetic and start growing up and know that my feelings need to be held under control or they will destroy me.

I need to stop putting myself under self-destruction out of fear of rejection and because of my miseries.

I washed my face several times with cold water and washed my hands to get rid of the dried out blood. I change into my pajamas and make my way outside of the bathroom, as I walked into the room Jaden was already laying down on the left side of the bed, hands behind his head just staring up at the ceiling. I walked slowly towards the other side and looking at the floor where I'm planning to spread the blanket i got under the bed for emergencies. I kneeled down and grabbed them before standing straight and opening it wide, before i even get the chance to do that i was cut off by his voice.

"What are you doing?" He asks even though apparently he already knows the answer.

"Spreading my blanket?" I stated questionably.

"Are you seriously going to give up your bed and sleep on the floor?" He asked, now weighting himself one his forearms as he lifted himself enough to look at me with raised eyebrows and questionable yet accusing glare.

"I mean.." I trailed off shrugging. He immediately got up off the bed and walked to the side were i was standing, i rose my eyebrows at him as he took the blanket from me and spreading it on the floor. What was he doing? And before I tried to make the effort, he laid down on the blanket smirking at me.

"What are you doing?" I asked, looking at him down putting my hands on my hips to give me a better stern profile.

"I'll sleep on the floor and you'll sleep on the bed" he stated simply shrugging, snuggling into the blanket trying to make himself comfortable and trying the best attempts to ignore the hard feeling of the solid floor. I sighed defeatedly before glaring holes into his skull.

"So it's either you sleep on the floor and me on the bed or....." i trailed off.

"We both sleep on the bed" he completed, smirking. I sighed, lifting my head to look up at the ceiling. I mean I need to respect my boundaries but I can't let him sleep on the floor and i know for sure he won't let me sleep on the floor, maybe if i just stay far from him like a meter or something we'll be fine, plus it's not the first time we've ever slept on the same bed. I sighed before turning my gaze back at him.

"Fine" it came out as a mixture of whining and groaning which he obviously found amusing as he chuckled. He understood my choice because he stood up and lifted the blanket and gave it to me, he gave me a wink before plopping back into the bed. I folded the blanket and put it back under the bed before laying on the other side of the bed. I slid under the cover as he did too and turned off my reading lamp.

"Do you snort usually?" He asked after a moment of comfortable silence.

"You asshole!" Even though it was dark and I couldn't see him, i threw a fist that hit his shoulder causing him to laugh, the jerk had the audacity to laugh!

"I was just asking! Calm down Jamal" he laughed.

"No I do not snort you idiot" i hissed before flipping to my side, him facing my back. We fell into a calming silence after a while that i could hear his steady breathing and my heart beats.

"Goodnight milly" he whispered softly.

"Goodnight Hossler" I smiled to myself before drifting off to sleep.

Sorry for making you wait for too long! Anyways im kinda happy with my writing as it developed through out the story.

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