Back and forth|Jxdn

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"Milly?" His voice whispered, the voice i was afraid to hear. The one who started all of this mess. Thoughts that maybe my brain is making this up and that he's not here makes me unsure if i should answer.

"Yes" I whispered and i was really surprised that he even heard that.

"Let me in?....... Please" he whispered softly and I couldn't help myself so I unlocked the door. I didn't open it though, i just walked back to my bed and sat on the edge of it. He opened the door himself and walked in, kneeling down in front of me.

"what are you doing here? it's ..............2am" i asked softly with all what was left from my voice, looking at the clock rather his eyes.

"abby called, said you and adam had a fight and that you locked yourself and never talked to anyone since" Jaden explained softly. He reached out for my hands, the ones curled into fists on my thighs but i refused to let him touch them. He will feel the heat radiating from the nail wounds. He was caught off guard at first but then immediately held them, tight and opened them slowly, his eyes widened at the sight of the blood and his head snapped up at me.

"Emily what happened?" he asked in a whole serious tone. The way he was looking at me made me scared rather guilty.

"I got really angry and it was all I could do to release it" I sighed.

"How could you do that to yourself?! Self-harm? Really Emily?" He started to get really pissed off but still didn't move, his jaw was clenched and his hands were now opening and closing on my hands.

"It's not like a meant doing it on purpose! I was angry , really really angry and I wanted to release it before I could do shit that i would regret" I explained frustration clear in my tone.

He sighed defeatedly and he jaw started to relax a bit and his eyes softened. He looked down at my hands and started tracing my palms with his fingertips, sending electricity down my spine with every touch.

"What happened?" He asked softly, more like a whisper.

"They got mad my phone was off" i sighed.

"And why did you turn it off?" He asked softly shifting his gaze to me.

"Because i felt messed up in the head and i wanted to clear my mind. Alone"

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked softly, the fingertips which were tracing my palm turning into a whole hand rubbing up and down my arm.

I shock my head and sighed.

I feel emotions bottling up in me again, i feel like im just so fragile from the inside like im gonna shatter at any moment.

"Why did you kiss her?" I let the words slip before i could catch them, coming out more like a whisper.

"Huh?" He looked confused for a second, before it clicked in his head " I didn't kiss her" he said, his voice full of certainty.

"But griffin said-" I tried to protest.

"Griffin walked in on her trying to kiss me, but she didn't I pulled away before she could" he explained, his hand reaching up for my hair, pushing the free strands behind my ear. That gesture itself made my head feel heavy.

"Oh" I smiled softly.

"Don't worry milly, im not going that way again" he said his voice soft but firm "im past that shit and for your knowledge im seeing someone else" he smirked, a whole ass smirk and me. Well me, im currently trying to hold back the urge to pin him in the wall and let him spill the name of the bitch he's seeing.

For god's sake i just got rid of mads and now he's seeing someone else?! Goddddd

But why am i mad? Didn't i want this? I was the one who kept for herself and decided not to share her feelings.