Rubber Band | Johnjae

prologue

Jaehyun sat in a dark room, staring at the rubber Band on his wrist. The only source of light in the room was the one shining through his laptop. He should go to bed since he has a book signing event the next day but he couldn't, not with all the anxiety bubble up in him.

Glancing up on his laptop he let out a sigh, his deadlines for his new book was just a few months away but he hasn't even prepared his rough draft-exhausted with all the thought he finally reached toward the pink and purple rubber band that wrapped around his left wrist perfectly, without a second thought he snaps the rubber harshly, harsh enough to stings.

He waited exactly three second before snapping it once again hoping the image of the boy he loved dearly goes away- but luck was nowhere to be found.

It has been months since his happiness disappeared, his world fell dim.

perhaps it was his fate to be unhappy, but he couldn't help but miss the smiles that resemble perfection, out-shining the sun every time the boy smiled. the loving arm that felt like home and a shelter that kept him safe when tsunami of insecurities rush in his mind, and the chest that bring comfort to jaehyun world whenever he lays on it, the beating heart of his lover never fail to put him on cloud nine, heaven within reach.

Looking back, he realized his selfishness, he didn't care what his surrounding was like all he care about was his happiness.

Little by little guilts made its way up to his body before overshadowing his heads with thoughts that may cause his life someday.

Snaps, snaps, snaps, the room was filled with the sound of the rubber band hitting the boys skin over and over again- but all he can think of is that one traumatic night.

With sweats dripping and heart beating at a crazy rate he was sure hes gone mad but a hand reach toward his right hand and stopped him from snapping the rubber band.

"jaehyun you promised you would stop with this habit of yours" the voice softly spoke stealing jaehyun attention from the rubber band

Jaehyun looked up with terrified look on his face with questions jamming through his head "w-why are you here?" the poor boy cried out, pulling his hand away from the man.

"Jae, baby look I'm sorry, I didn't mean to walk out of your life unannounced" the man apologized.

Jaehyun cries stopped, his gaze softens as he reaches his hand out to caress the man's cheek, slowly and gently, jaehyun caresses the man cheeks, his lips trembling, his eyes fogged up with the tears as he choked up a sentence.

"I know you're not real, but I can't tell myself to not reach out for you, not when you're right in front of me. please john, go find your happiness, your sister, your mother and leave me here.

The room was filled with cold air, with jaehyun caressing the air, once realization hit jaehyun the boy let out a painful maniac laugh as he looks around his room, hoping that he wasn't hallucinating, but the time doesn't wait nor, will it rewinds itself to give you a second chance. And that's when he realized that he should've taken advantage when he had the time.