Stormy Day: An angst poetry collection

3 Words

It's crazy how 3 words can change your life

It's 6 am

I'm in the waiting room, again

My heart is pounding, my hands cold and clammy

Sweat is dripping down my face

I look at the clock

A minute has passed

The beeping grows louder

It consumes my thoughts

I look at the machines looming over me

A nurse comes out of the operation room

There's a panicked look on her face

She turns towards me

I'm so sorry

She says

Your father died

No

no no no no

nonononono

no

no

no

no

NO

The way home

I can't believe it

I don't believe it

Mom is sobbing

I don't cry

He's not gone yet

I tell myself

He's still here

He has to be

For me

Memories

Playing in the snow

Eating ice cream

Taking walks

Planning for the future

Talking about cars

Fixing computers

Giving me advice

Showing off dance moves

Teasing my piano skills

All of it

Gone

Nowadays

I skip breakfast

I skip school

I get headaches

I take pills

I refuse to leave my room

I get lost in books with perfect endings

But I never cry

Hate

I hate school

I hate mom for forcing me to go to school

I hate cancer

I hate god for killing my father

I hate my friends for saying they know what I'm going through

I hate my headaches

I hate my teachers for giving me a hard time

I hate homework

I hate all of it