Back and forth|Jxdn

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"Why not?" She asks arching her eyebrows.

"Because" i pause for a second, sighing " I can't deal with rejection"

"Who said he's rejecting you?!"

"I just know he will, he fucking kissed her rosa!what other evidence do you need to understand that whatever shit im dealing with right now he has no participation in it?" I ask throwing my hands in the air.

"Listen up kid, maybe he didn't he even kiss her that's first, second you don't really get to jump into conclusions if you don't even know the facts"

"But Griffin said t-"  I tried to protest.

"If Griffin told you that cows could fly, would you believe him?" She asked seriousness washing over her beautiful hazel eyes.

She has a point god damn it!

"No" I whispered.

"That's what i thought!"

"But why would he lie?"

"And Why would he say the truth?" She challenges me as she crosses her arms over her chest as if to prove a point.

"I will think about it" i sigh.

"Well good...now stop beating up the damn dough and start rolling it" she grins widely and I can't help but smile and nod. It's surprising how her mood could switch in a fraction of a second.

Why is my life so confusing it's really overwhelming, ughh fuck feelings.

I made the cinnamon rolls and cleaned up my place, as i waited for them to get ready my phone started ringing, I looked at the caller ID and it was charli.

"hey char" i said as soon as i pressed answer.

"Emily! where are you?" she asks and i could feel a hint of concern.

"i'm at my aunt's restaurant, the one i took you guys to remember?"i explained.

"yeah i remember, but didn't you go like last weekend? why the urge for a long drive all of a sudden?" she asks, god this is so hard to even share, the thing is that she doesn't even know about the latest updates and i won't be even surprised if she tried to hunt me down after keeping this 'thing' from her for this long.

"i just felt like going away for sometime"i said softly, leaning my back against the counter facing the stove.

"but why didn't you to text me to come with you, or even you could have taken jaden with you so you don't get all lonely or oh you co-" she started ranting , my heart sank as i heard his name, i just feel not angry but.......sad. A tear betrayed me as it escaped my eye running down my cheek.

"i wanted to be alone" i cut her off, my voice came out more like whisper, a weak one and i just feel my heart shatter. Never in a million years would have thought that i would care this much again, especially after what i have experienced from letting my guards down for anyone specifically a boy.

"what's wrong? Emily are you okay?" she starts panicking, that's exactly the reason why i wanted to turn off my phone but i knew that Abby would get a panic attack if my phone didn't receive any of her texts or calls. Even Adam, he would fly to Australia searching for me trust me on that one, I've tried worrying him before and it didn't end well. i remember that day after they found me in the school's basketball field at 1am Friday night he hugged me tight that i almost choked my own breath after he gave me a whole ass lecture as to why I didn't text him and how I should be more aware about the people around me....blah blah blah. He actually acted really good.. should have known, i wish i could erase that part of my life.