Back and forth|Jxdn

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"I mean he's doing good but they're still messing around and I can't really understand their relationship though they fight almost every two to three days" she sighs shaking her head.

"I meannn...That's what couples do right?" I ask starting to whisk the flour and the water.

"You're right i guess" she pauses for a second and a frown forms on her face "speaking of couples what happened to you today? Does Mr.handsome have anything to do with this?" She asks and im not even surprised she hit the nail right on the head. Couples , wish i even had the chance to spell it.

"Something between those lines" i sigh.

"Spill it kid" she smiled softly and i just nodded slightly and started explaining everything from the start.

Aunt rosa and Abby are almost the only ones i trust to tell my soul too, maybe Jaden as well but not the way I trust these two. They just make my problems feel more important, and they sacrifice their time to listen to my bullshit. Noting down that they're so understanding in a way you won't even imagine and the way they support me makes my goals worth achieving knowing that there will always be someone who's ready to catch you whenever you fall. These two really act as if my problems are theirs'. Maybe you could say that 'yeah maybe abby as this way because she's the same age as you so she can relate unlike aunt rosa' but trust me on it when i say that both of them are the same, aunt rosa can be extremely older than me but still she's wise enough to come up with solutions that can't really cross a normal human's mind , same with abby maybe we're different people but she still understands like no other.

She keeps on listening to me rant about the bullshit I've been going through for the past week as well as the things that happened the past month and a half. She just nods and observes me as i keep on punching the poor dough, my temper keeps on getting high as i mention Mads's and Jaden's name in one sentence, it's unbelievable how violent this boy has made me.

".....and now he fucking kissed her!" I punch the dough rapidly none stop, rosa's not complaining actually she's enjoying the show with that little amused expression on her face.

"How could i be sooo naïve to think that he could actually like me?! Gosh im so stupid!"

"I shouldn't have let my guards down! I should have just shut him down when i had the chance to! I kept on fooling myself by believing that he looked at me differently"

"And He fucking kissed her after they broke up! And why am I fucking mad?!" I ranted furiously still punching the poor dough, my pulse is high and my breathing rate is really high my chest is throbbing like i have freaking drums on my lungs. I turned my head to look at rosa and she just looks at me like im a psychotic person who just landed on earth after a journey through the whole Milky Way.

"You think im an exaggerating bitch don't you?" I sigh shaking my head.

"No" she says softly.

"You're not exaggerating indeed it's really normal what you're going through, especially after what you've been through throughout your love life it's really hard for you to get attached to someone who you're still doubting their feelings towards you, although it's crystal clear how they actually feel" she smiles softly and my eyes widened at how she just extracted what I've been ranting for the past 40 minutes in 30 damn seconds.

"Don't look at me like that" she chuckles " i just know how it feels to keep doubting yourself when you catch feelings and trust me it's not the prettiest thing that could happen but try to talk to him"

"I- I can't" i stutter, feeling my breath hitch at the thought of me confessing my feelings for him and end up being rejected right away.

Nope not happening, I would rather die than get humiliated that way.