Back and forth|Jxdn

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"Oh okay" I smiled and nodded slightly.

"Who's mads?" Adam asks confused, I almost forgot he was still there making waffles, he's a really good cook. Actually we learned cooking together, we would go to aunt rosa's and bake together cookies and cook meals for each other as if we were in a competition.

"She's Jaden's girlfriend" Griffin says bluntly and i just wish i could smack him on the face, why does he sometimes enjoy being this stupid?! It looks like his mother dropped him on the head when he was a little baby. I gulp the whole juice in my mouth to avoid commenting.

"Ex girlfriend" kio corrects him and it's coming from his fake smiling teeth. I look at him and give him a thankful look as he winks and nods at me, I didn't even tell him about my little crush but i bet he already knew it from the start.

"What do you mean? I saw them in the morning kis-" before he gets to complete the sentence that Im afraid to hear Bryce nudges him aggressively with his elbow. Kissing?! My heart stopped pounding and im left there speechless, why would he do that?! I feel so hurt that i wanna crack someone's neck, im not really that aggressive on daily basis, well maybe a little but this is really crossing my normal strand of anger, why would he kiss her?! I mean i know she's his ex and it's not really easy to move on that quick but...

I don't even have any buts I shouldn't be even sad about it, i mean i accepted my feelings but i still can't help but be jealous, my heart just shattered to a million pieces and I can't help the limp in my throat that keeps me from talking. I feel pathetic, numb somehow and stupid for even thinking of any chance anything between us could happen. I don't feel like interacting with people anymore i just need to get out of here and fast.

"Ouchh what was that for?!" He whined and i look slightly at Adam who looks amused, enjoying the conversation and i just feel like vomiting.

"Anyways" i clear my throat to get their attention " i will head out, make yourself at home" i said bluntly before walking to the door not looking back.

"Wait you didn't even have your breakfast!" I hear Adam yell.

"I don't feel like eating anyway" anymore i want to say but i just stay silent, I don't even look back and head towards the front door, more like run. I grab my car keys and slam the door behind me strongly stomping towards my car, getting ready for a 2 hour trip to the only place i could get all of this tension, disappointment, misery off my chest, i feel the heaviness of the air as i try breathing calmly, i run the engine as it roars into life and immediately drive away from this hell of a neighborhood.

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"Boba!" She excitedly made her way towards me with open arms that I couldn't help but run into and try not to lose it.

"Hi aunt" I whisper in her chest holding the hem of her shirt.

"Aunt?" She sounds shock, i never call her that so she must have sensed something odd "Are you okay Emily?" She said pulling away enough for her to take a good look on my face and i try to hold my lips from quivering.

I nodded slightly even though she won't buy it one bit.

"Come Let's make you something to eat first and then we could talk" she says reassuringly before pulling away completely and grabbing my arm towards the kitchen.

"Where's Michael?" I asked as we stepped inside the kitchen, handing me the apron.

"She went to visit Logan's parents" she smiled softly as she wore her apron.

"Oh how is he by the way? I haven't seen him since the last time we attended the family gathering" i ask heading to get the ingredients for a nice, dense cinnamon rolls because i really really need to release all the anger in me on the dough, punching doughs has always been my thing when i just feel like losing it, it's just so relaxing. I know i sound like a damn psycho but sometimes you really need to punch something really bad and there's nothing punchable more than a fresh dough you feel?