The Meaning of Loathing - Sapnap x Reader

Prologue

A/N: The attached image is Y/N's outfit for the day. In this story, we're going to completely ignore dress codes because they're icky. Plus I'm too lazy to make sure that the outfits would follow a school's dress code. Anyways! Here are some things you may need to know:

Y/N - Your Name

F/N - Friend's Name

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TW: Abuse

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"This video my buddy Dream coded it so that our Minecraft damage is shared." The words echoed through my friend's phone. She was laying next to me on my bed showing me Sapnap's newest video. I groaned and rolled my eyes, moving so I was laying on my stomach instead of my back.

I didn't really understand everyone's obsession with him. To me he was just another loud YouTuber who yelled way too much. And what even was up with that "Hey Mamas" thing? If you ask me, it was super cringe. But F/N loves it or whatever so I guess I have to put up with it. 

"Y/N! Can you please come down here?" F/N's Mom called to me from downstairs. I sighed, knowing exactly what was going on. I turned to face F/N and smiled weakly before pulling them into a hug. 

I watched their face as tears welled up in their eyes. I felt my heart get caught in my throat as I started to tear up as well. I didn't want to leave, but my mother got a promotion and his job was relocating him. 

After a few minutes, I pulled out of my friend's embrace and got off their bed. I smoothed out my clothes then walked over to their bedroom door, opening it slowly. I looked back, giving them a small smile before turning back around to face the door and walk out of it, shutting it softly behind me. 

I walked down the stairs and was greeted by my mom and my friend's mom chatting on the sofa. My mom turned her head to face me once she heard me coming downstairs, thanking my friend's mom for letting me stay over and walking to the door. 

"Come on, y/n. We're already behind schedule." I stared down at my feet and nodded, walking towards the door. "Go on and say goodbye." I smiled nervously and waved goodbye to F/N's mom. 

My mom grabbed my shoulder, gripping it hard. "I thought I told you to say goodbye. That means you have to use you words." Tears welled up in my eyes and I tried to wiggle out of my mom's grip, causing her to hold onto my shoulder harder. She stared down at me, waiting for me to say something. I let out a shaky breath, opening my mouth in an attempt to say something before immediately closing it again. 

My mom growled under her breath and shoved me, causing me to fall to the ground, before walking out of the front door. I wiped the tears from my eyes as I slowly lifted myself off, smiling weakly at F/N's mom and walking out the door as well. 

My mom was already sitting in the driver's seat of the car by the time I got outside. She was typing on her phone with an angry expression, turning to face me as I got into the passenger side. "What are you doing?" My whole body tensed as she glared at me. I stared down at my hands in my lap and dug my nails into my palms, shrugging. I took a quick deep breath before getting out of the car and moving to sit in the backseat on the passenger side. 

My mom started the car and pulled out of my friend's driveway, turning left and driving down the road. I fished my phone out of my pocket and felt around the seat for my earbuds. It took me a minute, but I finally found them and plugged them into my phone, opening Spotify and putting on Heat Waves by Glass Animals. I knew this was going to be a long trip since we were driving from Dallas to Houston. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the window, focusing on the words of the song.

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I'm so sorry for such a short chapter! I promise chapters will get longer and better from here on out. However, this is only the prologue, so... Anyways, I hope you enjoyed! :))