BREAKTHROUGH

5,15

All I can remember is sitting on the couch watching tv with my great grandma (we call her GG) and I got the urge to have to pee, and if you know me ya know that I hold my pee so much that soon as I have to pee I have to go but this time I couldn't because my older cousin Chad was taking a shower and it very well coulda been karma because why didn't I go before he went to take his shower? who knows? I go an knock on the door to hurry him up but that did nothing but make him take longer, so now I'm in the hallway doing the I got to pee now dance and if I don't it's gone be a mess in my gg hallway and I WASN'T TRYING TO GET CUSSED OUT. MY GG GOT UP AND SAID GIRL GONE ON IN THERE AND USE THE BATHROOM !! AND I WAS LIKE CHAD TAKING A SHOWER SHE YELLED FOR HIM TO CLOSE THE CURTAIN AN LET ME PEE. FROM THE MOMENT I WAS NERVOUS OF WHAT SHE WANTED ME TO DO EVEN AT THE MERE AGE OF 5YRS OLD. I KNEW THIS WASN'T A GOOD IDEA BUT I WASN'T GOING TO DISOBEY SO I EASE ON IN AND TRY AN HURRY TO PULL MY CLOTHES DOWN TO PEE. ALL THE WHILE MY COUSIN CHAD OPENS UP THE CURTAIN SLIDES OUT THE SHOWER AND LOCK THE BATHROOM DOOR. IN MY MIND IM STILL NOT REGISTERING WHATS GOING ON HELL IM FIVE FOR CHRISTS SAKE SO I BARELY WIPE MYSELF I GET UP AND FLUSH THE TOILET. HES STANDING IN THE FRONT OF THE DOOR WITH A TOWEL ON HE COVERED MY MOUTH PUT ME ON MY KNEES IN FRONT OF THE TOILET. STILL GOT MY MOUTH COVERED HE ENTERED MY BUTT AND ALL I COULD DO WAS SCREAM😭😭WHILE HE WAS FIRMLY COVERING MY MOUTH 😊. NOW IM FIGHTING BECAUSE THIS IS WRONG IK IT IS AND VERY PAINFUL! I GET LOOSE AND BUTTON MY CLOTHES. U KNOW HE DOWN MY THROAT LIKE U BET NOT SAY A THING AND AT THIS POINT IM SCARED AND HURTING SO I JUST GO SIT BACK ON GG COUCH PLACED MY HEAD ON THE ARM OF THE CHAIR AN CRIED. I CRIED SO HARD THAT I THREW UP ALL OVER HER COUCH SHE SAY WHAT THE HELLS THE MATTER WITH U GIRL I SAID I DON'T FEEL TOO GOOD, MY STOMACH HURT. I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT SHE DIDNT KNOW. I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT SHE DIDN'T FEEL LIKE I WAS IN THE BATHROOM WAYY TOO LONG. WHY SHE DIDN'T HEAR NOTHING THAT WAS GOING ON ? ALL THESE THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD. TIMES GOES BY I GUESS BECAUSE MY MEMORY IS SO VAGUE THAT I CAN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING BETWEEN THEN TIL THE NEXT INCIDENT CAUSE AS WE ALL KNOW IT DOESN'T JUST STOP THERE OR DOES IT🤔