I am a Riddle | Draco Malfoy, 18+

T h i r t y - f i v e,

— my fucking lip. She's mine, everything about her belongs to me, and even is she doesn't remember that I'll remember for her, '' Fuck—,'' I shouted, my breaths stuck in my throat as I did everything possible not to cry,

My fists repeatedly colliding with the wall, blood-stained everywhere, the craving to feel something else than the ache of her consumed me. I flinched back as my door flung open, brown eyes bored through mine, closing the door behind him,

'' Get out—,'' I tried to warn, but Blaise didn't move a muscle, he simply stood before me, his face shifted in worry, the look of him made me furious because he was here, he could've stopped her from doing the worst possible thing, '' Fucking leave, Zabini,''

'' No—,'' He mumbled, his hand rushed over his head, scratching his head after, '' You don't get to do this, Malfoy — You don't get to disappear for six months only shout at me when you're back,''

I stared at my best friend, my knees weakened, my eyes pooled, '' Who did this?'' I growled, my fingers twitching, '' Who did this to her, because there is no way that she decided to do this on her own,'' I nearly broke, my bravery lacking me,

'' She wouldn't do this to me—,'' - the tears I fought missed, streaming down my cheeks, '' She—,'' I sobbed, trying to muffle the whining noises escaping my throat,

I felt his hand on my shoulder, gently pinching it, his face turned soft, his eyes calm as he shyly nodded,'' I need to tell you something Draco—,''

I glared at the boy, breaths hitched utterly,'' I—, I did it, but you weren't—,'' He sucked in a harsh breath, scared to admit that he did this, that he took her from me,

'' I obliviated her, ''

The words leaving his lips burst through the misery, my mind swirled, pushing my curled up fists into his chest, making his back roughly slam against the wooden door, a whimper left his lips as he tried to stand tall on his feet,

But the look of him, standing before, knowing what he'd done, what he'd taken from me, made my blood fume, eyes furiously darkened, my hands flew to his throat, fingers dug into the tanned skin with force,

'' You did this—,'' I hissed, teeth gritted, '' You fucking did this?'' His eyes almost rolled back as the need of air ceased, hands tried to pry mine off, and after moments of tries, he forced me away, making me flounder back,

Both of us breathing hard, all four hands clenched in fists, ready to fight each other, but his face soothed, his chest hunched forward, trying to catch his missing breath, '' You have no idea—,'' He coughed, clearing his throat as he straightened his spine, raising both hands in surrender, '' You don't know what you did to her—,''

'' Don't you think I fucking know that?'' I spat, my voice tore through the room, making him shut up, '' Don't you think I know what I did? I left her, Blaise. I—,''

'' No, you don't, Malfoy—,'' His vocals loud, his temper failing him, '' You don't fucking know because you weren't here.''

''You weren't here when another nightmare woke her up in the middle of the night. You didn't hear her scream for you. You didn't hear her voice breaking in pain, Draco—, ''

'' You weren't here when she was so bloody broken that, she couldn't speak, all she did was sleep, because all she wanted to do, was to dream of you—, ''

'' You weren't here when she tried to jump off that fucking tower, or when I found her right here, in your bathroom, trying to hurt herself, when she begged me on her bare knees to take the pain away—,''

'' I know that this is hard on you, but imagine how hard this was for her. Luna died, you left, there wasn't anything here for her anymore—, '' He breathed out, his chest slowing, his hands frustratingly thrown in the air, '' You weren't here, Draco. She was drowning and believe me when I say that it was the hardest thing I have ever watched because it wasn't her anymore—,''