Buried secrets.

Chapter I

I INTRODUCE TO YOU CHAPTER 1 OF BURIED SECRETS.

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I watched in complete shock as the paramedics lifted the stretcher,carrying the cause of my endless suffering and pain into the ambulance, lifeless. It was horrific but relieving at the same time knowing that my pitiful scars could finally heal without worsening or disturbance.To be honest, I actually prayed for this day to come sooner than later.

The terrorised urban neighborhood and street I lived in was filled with crowds of people wanting to see what they could not have imagined would happen. My mother was well known for drug abuse, drug dealing, theft and other dangerous miscellaneous activities that landed her into jail numerous times. Those were the best times I could ever have... The times when she is far away from me... Incapable of realising her aggravation and irritation on me.

Because of her terrible decisions and drug addiction, my mother was never really considered in the Martin family. At the age of seventeen, she fell pregnant for a drug trafficker. He was never there to support her during this period. After she gave birth to me, she ran away from home and subjected herself to the life of drugs after seeking assistance from the ring leader . Even if I had the chance to go back and reunite with my family, the same judgement that she carried was passed over to me and sadly it's true.

As a kid, I never ever knew how it felt like to go to school... To be in a class with people you can consider as friends... To have an education. I grew up knowing the world as a place that only considered the wealthy people as significant and outcasted people that are like me. Black.. Poor... And most devastatingly... Female. As days crucially went by, I began to realize that the only person I can trust on this earth is me. Just me.I refuse to accept myself everyday. Accept the fact that I'm just like my mother. It hurts everyday not knowing how and where I'm going to raise the two burdens I'm carrying in my womb.

( 8 months ago )...

It was a cold winter season, trees drenched in snow , the roads filled with happy people spreading holiday cheer . I let out a small sigh as looked out the window of the bus, wanting nothing more but to go sleep by a bench awaiting assistance from anyone who passes by, than go to that havoc fixed place called home. Many times I've wanted to leave, oblivious of the dangers around me, with an aim of escaping the clutches of a woman who claims to be my mother. But sadly that wasn't my decision to Make.

My thoughts moved in and out of my head as I got off the bus, ready to walk my way into the scariest part of town. No one was fond of coming this far. The area I lived in at that time wasn't fully supported in terms of development and other aspects. It had blinking street lights, a bumpy road and an uneven number of houses. Perfect place to hide from the cops.
I squeezed the light piece of material over my shoulders as the cold wind blew heavily during the late hours of the night. A part of me wanted to listen to some music, but that would only make me think even more, plus who knows which creep might be hiding around waiting to attack. I squeezed my leather side bag trying to feel if I carried my emergency taser gun. It's the only thing I had left to keep me safe.

"No". My heart began to beat a little faster than usual after I heard the sound of a car behind me. I quickly turned my head around to get a quick look of who it might be. But to my worst nightmare, it was actually a very unfamiliar vehicle. A vehicle rarely seen around here. It was similar to the one that had kidnapped two toddlers who were found dead by the way ridge river. Was I their next victim?

I wasn't willing to take any chances. I knew that I hated my life, but doesn't mean I didn't want to finish living it. The car began to speed up and before I even knew it, I began to run. Run really fast. Faster than I ever could in a lifetime. But of course, my short legs couldn't take me very far.
"Hey hey! Why are you running away??" I heard the man shout in a deep husky voice from his window as I was now limping, trying to catch my breath. Taking a quick look at him, I limped even faster in hope that he might just ignore me and drive off.
"Just leave me alone okay!!" I yelled at him. Maybe that way he'd disappear.

" Listen to me, I just want to give you a lift to your house aight! Aren't you SPA's daughter?" He questioned. SPA is some secret name that people around here use to refer to my mother. I've never really bothered to ask what it sands for.
" I don't need your help!"
" So you'd rather walk a ten mile distance at night with nobody to help you just in case you get attacked right?"
I looked up and looked at him through the open window, very unsure of what to say. But of course, my stubbornness took the upper hand. "Right." I replied sternly.
I wasn't going to let my life end this way, most especially by a man I barely knew.
" Look, I'm just trying to help you here. I had a niece who died because she was walking down this road all by herself. I never really got to know her cause she was really young. I really wouldn't live with myself if I let anything happen to you, alright? So would you please just trust me and get in?"

I was suddenly taking slow strides while listening to what he was saying. Is there any good man left on this Earth? Maybe he does have good intentions I thought to myself.

I finally stopped to take a good look at him. He looked like he was in his early twenties... I couldn't quite see all his physical features because of the dark but I could tell he was a handsome man. He was looking right at me, staring into my eyes... Like he was looking for something. Someone.
I took a deep breath and finally gave in. He politely opened the passenger's door for me and I got in, holding my bag up my chest just in case he'd try something funny.

The car began to move at a steady pace.
There was an awkward silence between us. I watched him from the corner of my eyes trying to get a better view. He had fair skin, light brown eyes with a dashing beard that looked well maintained and a nicely shaped jaw lining that fit perfectly with his plump lips. He was quite attractive that I could agree. But the handsome ones are always devils in disguise. He was dressed in a nice suit that looked pretty expensive." I'm Devan Browan. But most people usually call me Dee." He said. He looked at me expectantly waiting for a response that I was unsure of giving.

"Monnic. Monnic Martin." I finally gave in. There was another void of silence.
" So I'm guessing you're not much of a chatter." He said with a chuckle like something was funny. Am I really that cold?
" Glad you noticed." I replied after some time.
" You're very different from your mother." My body shivered at those words... Mother. If only he knew what I go through.
" Yeah we're.. not the same."
"Have you ever killed anyone before?" He questioned me. I was quite shocked that he'd ask me such a question. Why would I ever find it in me to take someone else's life?
"No! Absolutely not. "
He let out a low chuckle as he put one hand one his chin and the other on the steering wheel. " Innocent I can see. Well.. how old are you anyway?"
" 18"
" I had my first kill at 15"
"Your life not mine"
" I was taught by her" he said with laugh. By her, I guess he was referring to my mother. "Oh". There was a moment of silence again. I really didn't have anything much to say to him.. to anyone. The ride just seemed to be getting longer and longer. I wonder where I would have been by this time. Probably getting beat up in a cold alley.

I could finally see my house around the corner. To say I was happy would be an understatement. I didn't want to go home, but at least it's better than ridding with someone I don't know. He pulled over by the entrance and let of convertible open. I could tell it cost a million bucks. Before I stepped out, I felt his touch on my hand. I froze and looked at him. " Listen, I'm not trying to control you or anything but please try not to move around these streets at such a late hour. It's really not safe. I'm not ready to loose anyone else." I looked at him directly in the eye as he said those words. For the first time my whole life, I really felt like someone actually was showing me concern. I felt a small crack in my chest like... I actually cared.
I put a warm smile on my face and nodded. "Thanks." I told him as I stepped out of the vehicle.

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