Hiraeth (Reader x Spencer Reid)

#2 Lucy

You look over at JJ who runs to comfort Lucy. She looks at you then Reid she looked jealous. You start thinking, doesn't she have a husband and Henry her beautiful son. Why would she be jealous. You all walk out Reid basically carrying you and JJ helping Lucy down the stairs. "Wow, you're a real badass." JJ blurts out. You responded "Why do you sound so surprised." You were a little upset that. Reid just giggled and you both keep walking. You were a little upset you didn't get to shoot that son of a bitch for what he did to Lucy, even if it was just his foot. 

You go back to Quantico, to meet Olivia Mc'Neil, and interrogate Gre- no he doesn't deserve that, the little bitch. 

You were over the moon excited to see Olivia you haven't seen her in forever. You were walking in the front with Reid, Lucy, and JJ. You walking ahead with Lucy while Reid and JJ  are walking behind you both talking. You knew they were close, but really you were the one who just fought off a man almost twice your size. You keep walking checking in on Lucy. "I'm so sorry he hurt you, it's my fault that he was there." Lucy blurts in a shaky voice. "Lucy, I knew what I was getting into, this is not your fault at all." You say. "y/n I still feel bad that Greg hurt you like that." She says still scared. "1st you should see the other guy, 2nd don't feel bad, 3rd never say his awful name again." You remember a study saying that giving your abuser the power of saying their name, makes coping a lot easier.

You keep walking in hurrying when you see Olivia, basically running to go give her a hug.  She looks a lot different, she seems more confident and happy. You grab her and she hugs you back, you both squeezing the life out of each other. "I missed you so much, y/n" She says still holding you. "I missed you too!" She lets go to grab your face. Both her hands on your cheeks "What the hell, happened to your beautiful face?" You tell her the story. She grabs you again holding you tighter. She looks at Reid and JJ, "Who is that, gorgeous man?" "Oh that's doctor Spencer Reid." You lift an eyebrow. Her knowing what that means. They greet each other. 

She turns her head over to Lucy. She says "Hi, I'm Olivia Mc'Neil, I'm an old friend of y/n's, I'm going to help you hide and basically start a new life, so this monster can't find you." Lucy looks at your hands then your face. You nod and smile. Olivia putting her hand out and Lucy grabs it running to the bathroom. 

You know now you have to go interrogate the little bitch. You go up to get an confession, Reid grabs your shoulder before you walk in. "Are you sure you are ready to do this?" You know you'll be fine. You really want to go in there and make sure he knows where he stands. "I'm fine." You walk in. He laughs like a maniac, you repeating the laugh. You didn't realise it but this would be your first interrogation.

"You can't arrest me, I didn't do anything wrong." He says with such confidence. 

You laugh a little "Assault of a federal agent, Sexual assault,  battery, rape do you want me to keep going." You say with more confidence than he did. 

" Fine, what do you want." He grabs your hands that are resting folded together on top of the table. You grab his forearm than with your thumb pushing on a pressure point. You push his hand in and start twisting. "You will never touch anyone else like that again." You whisper by him. Until he screams to let go. You hold it one second longer than slam his hand on the table, you stand up. You walk out with your head held high then shut the door. 

As soon as the door shuts you see JJ, Reid, Morgan, Hotch, Prentiss, Pen, and Rossi. Just standing there looking at you. Their mouths wide open, they look shocked and slightly concerned. You read the room. 

You're uncomfortable so you just keep walking. You feel your eyes starting to water. "y/n don't you dare start fucking crying after you just did that!" You think to yourself. You go to the bathroom. You go straight to the sink, slamming your hands on the counter. A tear slowly trickling down your face. You then start slowly falling to the ground, when Pen grabs you and holds you. Prentiss and JJ start talking you can tell because their mouths are moving but you can't hear it. You just fall silently crying. You slowly start calming down. They walk you out, they start heading towards the beautiful glass doors. "No", you walk back towards the interrogation room. "I just want to watch." They argue for a minute then cave in. 

You walk in to see Reid and Morgan tag teaming him through the glass. God he's so fucking hot. The little bitch says "Bring back in that pretty girl, I just want to talk." "After that little stunt you will only be seeing men for the rest of your stay." Reid blurts out. Wow that was so hot, and so kind. You keep thinking, now you just want this man to rail you. I mean c'mon the way he talked about you, and protected you. 

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They finally walk out of the bathroom, the before blond with brown eyes walks out with, short black hair and blue eyes. "You look amazing." Pen shouts. "I almost didn't recognize you." you say. Everyone else joining in on the compliment train. You can tell Lucy didn't get compliments a lot. You hug Olivia "I should start going, I'll keep in touch." She says. "Okay, I love you bub, don't forget to call." They both walk off and hop into a car and drive off. 

"I know today has been hard, but could you give me a ride home?" Reid said.

"Ofcourse, I would be happy to." 

The car ride was silent he didn't say anything. Then you dropped him off, he told you "Call me , if you need anything, even if it's just to help you go to the store. Okay?" "Yes dad, I'll call you." You say while rolling your eyes. As soon as you get home you lock the door so tight, locking all the locks. You change, with no ambition to shower, you get in bed with your gun right next to you on the night stand. 

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I don't really care if anyone reads this I'm gonna keep writing, but if you are reading this, THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU. Also, if any of you need anything even if it's just to talk I'm here!! This is future me, and I really hate these first few chapters, I'm promise this will get better.