Hard Luck

Chapter 1

"I am not putting that on, Lilly", I said as I could hardly keep my eyes on the outfit which was fit for a stripper.

"I'm not Elenor", I said, referring to my other bestie who was currently out of the state.

Lilly, Elenor and I are three friends which have this inseparable bond.

Lilly is the hyper one who loves fun and she never has control over what she says.

On the other hand, I have Elenor. She's the total opposite. Unlike Lilly she is much more reserved and has a very great control over her words. In fact she is very secretive. She has a very tough behavior but she's a huge softy on the inside.

While I...let me say I'm normal.

I'm the richest among the three of us. My dad is one of the richest men who is known for his prestigious works and contributions to America as a whole. But that's by the way.

I am known to be the most attractive. Always the flirty one that always leads guys on then leaves them hanging. I kinda find it fun.

I smile a lot but when I'm mad...the end could be likened to a world's war.

"Are you sure? Cause I think it would complement your curves perfectly", she said as she winked at me.

"Gross", I said as I faked a gag, "Never do that again".

Tonight is a big night for us. I mean for Lillly cause I don't really see the big deal bout tonight. A bar would be opening tonight and it's owners are one of New York's richest and youngest business man.

She claims a lot of rich guys would come around. But I really don't know why she eyes other guys when she has a really attractive boyfriend.

"I don't still get why I must go. Isn't Logan coming. I would be a total third wheel", I whined as I crashed into the softness of my queen sized bed.

Lilly stopped searching for an outfit and gave me a really bad stink eye.

"Are you listening to your self woman. You are twenty five. That isn't young anymore. Get yourself a life and quit throwing yourself at any young man your mother finds for you. Stop being a spoilt brat and grow up!", she yelled.

Wow. What's up with the attitude.

I stood there as I watched her in dismay, as her words began to sink in slowly. Was she talking to me?

Her once angry demeanor softened up as she sensed my change in mood.

"That wasn't meant to be said...", she murmured.

"What did you just say?", I yelled as the anger in me was beyond bounds now.

Spoilt. Brat. I throw myself. Wow. What have I missed in my own life.

I don't know why but I'm so angry at her. I can't tell whether to be angry that she spoke the truth cause I don't even know if that's the truth.

I try my best and hold myself as a tear threatened to drop from my eyes.

I hated my self for this.

I can't cover up my emotions and it makes me feel so messed up. When I'm angry I can't control myself. When I'm down the whole atmosphere goes down with me. I can't control myself.

Now the fact that I can't control my anger only makes my anger grow more.

I threw my nightstand to the wall harshly making Lilly to jerk away from my side.

"Your supposed to be my friend, Lilly, not be like others that would yell at me and throw my faults in my face like I'm meant to be perfect. Why don't you tell me my fucking problem like my fucking friend?", I yelled as I threw my new Mac book at the wall as well.

At this point Lilly was already a mess. Her eyes strained with tears as they carried regret and... fear.

What the heck.

My temper immediately died down as I stared at my friend in disbelief.

"Are you scared of me?", I asked her lowly.

I realized now that Lilly was already at the door when it swung open and she literally flew out like there's a ferocious beast in here.

I looked around my room as the mess I created dawned on me. Maybe that's what I am. A ferocious beast.

I feel on my bed and cried my eyes out. Is this how bad I've gotten. From breaking stuff to scaring of my own best friend.

I looked around as saw how wrecked my room had become.

Pictures hung out of place, broken stuff, my book shelf on the floor...I even damaged more than my memory could recall.

I cried a little more then picked up my cell phone and called Elenor.