the wonder less years

the last day

    todays date is october 19. a couple days before my birthday. i drug myself out of bed this morning to the bus stop and went to school. i dont have very many friends any more because people think that people with problems are freaks and you shouldnt talk to them because all they want is attention, and remeber you never wanna give an 'attention seeker' attention kids.

   the periods went by and i couldnt help but think about my final desicion for tonight. im going to end it. everything will be over with. and ill have no more worrys. i cant take it anymore, the constant worry and dread to go anywhere because everyone knows me as the freak child that cuts herself and makes her self throw up. you cant trust anyone. it was finally 6th period and there was only 5 more minutes of class. as i sat there with my head phones and my head in my arms in tears streaming down my face, along with paper balls getting thrown at me. the bell finally rang. and i ran out of the class because i didnt want anyone to see i was crying.

"Hey bitch!" someone yelled acorss the hallway. i ignored it only one more stare case to go down and i can leave this lousy shit hole they call 'the best 4 years of your life' yeah right.

"excuse me, did you not here me calling for you." someone said startling me as she stepped in front of me. this girls name was rebekah and she was tall, blonde, with a perfect body. captian of the volley ball team, along with dance..and cheerleading..and every other thing we have at our school.

"i had my ear phones in sorry, i didnt hear you." i said dreading she wouldnt tourment me and just let me leave.

"well you know, they say that if someone ignores you...you have the right to hurt them? you know that dont you?" she said with her little posey behind her smurking.

"um... no." i said with a confused face. within seconds i was on the ground gettng slapped, scratched, and kicked. there was a group of people around me. i didnt fight back because why should i. it was my last day, might as well let it just be. after they were done, i simply got up and walked out. i accidently bumbed in to someone when i walked out. he looked at in shock and confusement. i didnt say anything as i walked right by him heading for the street light to pass and head on home.

    i finally reached the fair grounds. my house was only about a mile further now. i usually dont walk home but i wanted to embrase everything for a last time. i entered the fair grounds and walked around. everything had seem to have lost its color. my dad use to take me here when we were younger adn we'd ride the tea cups for hours on end until i got sick. after we'd go eat the cheap nocho's and corn dogs with orange sodas. i could remeber staying there until the sun went down and everyone was gone, just so we could ride the Bullet, a rollercoster,one last time with no one else on it. 

   i heard the crunching of leaves behind me. i quickly turned around to see the guy i accidentaly bumbed into when i was leaving school.

"did you follow me here?" i said with a confused face.

"well, um...yes. i-" 

"that's kind of really creepy, didnt your parents ever tell you stalking was illigal?" i said cutting him off.

"well i just wanted to ask if you were okay, i saw what happened and i couldnt help but be in shock. i dont understand why you just let them do that-"

"look. i've never seen you before adn you've never seen me before. what happened today happenes all the time adn no one ever does anything about it. dont mind me asking but, why do you care?" i said.

"well i mean, why should anyone get  treated like that. its not fare. everyone should have a chance to live there life without getting tourmented like that." he said this with so much sympathy i could help but want to tell him everything.