I smile and I laugh
Hoping no one can see
The pain in my heart
And in my mind
Feels likes its strangling me
I smile and I laugh
But I'm crying inside
The pain is to real
It just won't heal
Everyday the same old story
I wake
I eat
I see her in my mind
I smile and I laugh
Missing my grandma
Can't sleep
Refusing to talk about it
Not admitting that the pain is there
