2am Poetry

One: Questions

Yeah so this one is inspired by moody teen pop song "I Have Questions" by Camila Cabello that I listen to on occasion while in my 2am feels. If you wanna listen to the song look it up cuz it aint my job to give it to you.

Do you think I'm stupid? That I couldn't predict your thoughts? I was always there, always ready to fix every mistake you made. Why were you never there for me?

Every time I tried to reach toward you you backed away. The love you gave me was fake.

So why did you do it? Why did you hurt me? For the fun of it? Are my feelings fun to play with? I hope my suffering was sufficient entertainment for you.

I knew from the start that you were a monster, but I still loved you. Tried to save you from your demons, but all they did was take me down with you.

Now I'm here, wondering what on earth was going through your head? What on earth was going through my head?

Who do you think you are? You teared me apart, left me broken and lost. Left me with all my dangerous thoughts and nowhere to go. Left me scared and in darkness.

Why is this loss so painful? Why do the people I love turn their backs on me so quickly? I love them and all they do is leave me. Hate me. Use me.

Nothing about me seems right now. My hands don't feel right without yours intertwined in them, my mouth doesn't taste right without "I love you's" slipping past my lips, my hair doesn't smell right without your kisses on my temple.

So many unnumb-ible questions swirl through my aching head, but one question surfaces to the front of my thoughts. 

A question that haunts me. 

A question I need to ask but don't want the answer to...

...do you miss me?

These are probably gunna be pretty short poems idk cuz they poems. This prolly won't be updated that often cuz I cant force them poems out of me. sorry lol.