PAIN OF LOVE

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As i gasped for more air, i can't explain the feeling  at the moment i wanted to moan louder but he grabed me by my lips to make sure i did not make a sound"Hader!Hader!" I wisped  as i tried to gasp for more air. I felt him inside me the whole of him."Diper! Diper!"  I commande and he did not hesitate to do as i instructed him to do the feeling was one of a kind. He turned me from one side to another ,one position to another. The bed sheets where all over the floor. His pace increased .At that moment he was ontop of me as i lay down  my mind drifted from this beautiful moment to what was killing me deep down. As i looked at him, i wounder,,,,

Which pain of Love was this  those memories rushed through my mind , this  is what I feel after my one true love as I was super sure he was. To me the pain of letting him go or the pain of staying, was the pain I felt. I did know which pain was better to let him go or to stay ether of the pain I was okey with, as long as his love for me was true but I could no longer tell if I still held the same special place to his heart, was I lying to myself I felt like I was in a battle filed. Fighting for our love to blossom. I could no longer tell the difference, I was so blinded in love super but I love the pain of staying, the pain that I feel cannot be measured by any thing that has be created by man. Let's see which pain which I decided to experience?
Love is the most beautiful, can't even describe it since everyone has their own description of love. A few months ago, if you asked me if true love dose exist then I would have given you a million reasons to as why I believe so.
But I can no longer testify to those kinds of wards. Love is not what we see on our television, it's not those ferry tails we watch as kids and believe that there is a prince charming somewhere waiting for us. It's those romantic movies we waste time watch and thinking that's how it all should fall in place; we forget that nothing there is real it's all a role the play just to earn an income.
I am one of those kids who grew up watching snow white and prince charming, sleeping beauty, beauty and the beast, Cinderella and so on name them and all the love songs the world could offer. I have watched all the romance move that came my way. I was so sure that true love truly existed in this world.
And I was so egared to experience and finally my turn did come. I finally came across my one true love. We were super sure that were will both walk down the ale together take our obvious and go for one of the best honeymoons in Paris the city of lights and finally go to Rome, I always call it the city of romance. Then have our own mention on a hill top surrounded by trees and a few meters a river and every evening seat down with mags of coffee and watch the sun set on the mountain and gaze at the beautiful stars light up the sky, give birth to four perfect children two lovely girls and two handsome boy and that was the perfect family I always dream of since forever. I was so sure that true love does exist but love at first sight was never true love to me love had to grow to be nature pampered so as to grow into true love.

This is a story of how my love story grew into true love and finally a love pain.
********it's just beginning make sure you don't get lost on the way because I won't tell it twice.
Have you ever had so many feelings that you can't even describe them you feel so depressed but only depressed in your heart and try to wear a fake smile so as to avoided so many questions, to avoid to explaining over and over again, to avoid poor judgement from people since we all think we know what best but that not the case?
I was super scared to open up to my feelings I just felt super depressed but the thought of taking my life list of our worries right know. My thoughts these days are easy carried away and I tend to wonder how life used to be so beautiful before all hell broke loss on us. My heart felt super empty like nothing on this planet earth will ever fill that empty space inside only you. It's like I what you really need you but I will never have you. That's what hurts the most.
The days grew shorter am the nights grew longer, lonely, daker, empty and I broke down every night. But this one night I decided to face the true I decided to recall each moment we spent to gather once and for all. To finally burry the memories somewhere dip a place they will no longer torment me.
Let's begging from that night when a stranger came calling my name and that's how he got my instance attention.

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Love pain, is what I feel after my one true love as I was super sure he was. To me the pain of letting him go or the pain of staying, was the pain I felt. I did know which pain was better to let him go or to stay ether of the pain I was okey with, as long as his love for me was true but I could no longer tell if I still held the same special place to his heart, was I lying to myself I felt like I was in a battle filed. Fighting for our love to blossom. I could no longer tell the difference, I was so blinded in love super but I love the pain of staying, the pain that I feel cannot be measured by any thing that has be created by man. Let's see which pain which I decided to experience?
Love is the most beautiful, can't even describe it since everyone has their own description of love. A few months ago, if you asked me if true love dose exist then I would have given you a million reasons to as why I believe so.
But I can no longer testify to those kinds of wards. Love is not what we see on our television, it's not those ferry tails we watch as kids and believe that there is a prince charming somewhere waiting for us. It's those romantic movies we waste time watch and thinking that's how it all should fall in place; we forget that nothing there is real it's all a role the play just to earn an income.
I am one of those kids who grew up watching snow white and prince charming, sleeping beauty, beauty and the beast, Cinderella and so on name them and all the love songs the world could offer. I have watched all the romance move that came my way. I was so sure that true love truly existed in this world.
And I was so geared to experience and finally my turn did come. I finally came across my one true love. We were super sure that were will both walk down the ale together take our obvious and go for one of the best honeymoons in Paris the city of lights and finally go to Rome, I always call it the city of romance. Then have our own mention on a hill top surrounded by trees and a few meters a river and every evening seat down with mags of coffee and watch the sun set on the mountain and gaze at the beautiful stars light up the sky, give birth to four perfect children two lovely girls and two handsome boy and that was the perfect family I always dream of since forever. I was so sure that true love does exist but love at first sight was never true love to me love had to grow to be nature pampered so as to grow into true love.

This is a story of how my love story grew into true love and finally a love pain.
********it's just beginning make sure you don't get lost on the way because I won't tell it twice.
Have you ever had so many feelings that you can't even describe them you feel so depressed but only depressed in your heart and try to wear a fake smile so as to avoided so many questions, to avoid to explaining over and over again, to avoid poor judgement from people since we all think we know what best but that not the case?
I was super scared to open up to my feelings I just felt super depressed but the thought of taking my life list of our worries right know. My thoughts these days are easy carried away and I tend to wonder how life used to be so beautiful before all hell broke loss on us. My heart felt super empty like nothing on this planet earth will ever fill that empty space inside only you. It's like I what you really need you but I will never have you. That's what hurts the most.
The days grew shorter am the nights grew longer, lonely, daker, empty and I broke down every night. But this one night I decided to face the true I decided to recall each moment we spent to gather once and for all. To finally burry the memories somewhere dip a place they will no longer torment me.
Let's begging from that night when a stranger came calling my name and that's how he got my instant attention.