My Brother's Best Friend

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When every one got back Michael found tapes in my room labeled "Dance Competitions (final)" he told us we would watch a film and then he played them. I dropped the popcorn when I saw me with my old dirty blonde long hair, sparkly shorts, matching trashy top, and fishnet stockings. I knew it was me. Ash looked at me then the tape and said

"DAMN!"

"What the fuck?!" I said looking at Luke.

" Not me, Michael found them.'' He said pointing to Michael.

I turned and slapped him just thinking about how he knew I though it was embarrassing. He pulled me to the seat to watch and then I rembered this was when I was 13 and my top came lose and fell off. I rushed to find the remote but it was too late. I saw it happen and Calum spit out his drink and Ash dropped his laptop.

"Shit!" I thought to my self covering my face.

"Oh yeah I rember this!" Luke said laughing "that's why she stopped!" He said cracking up.

I punched Michael in his arm fighting to pull out my knife. Luke knew I had anger problems and time me out side to calm down.

"Its OK, he didn't know" he said

''He knew I thought it was embarrassing!" I yelled

''Calm down Zo'''he said taking me back inside.

I sat away from Michael and he slept alone that night. I was sitting in my room and I pulled out y knife and thought of everything wrong with me. And I started to cut for every imperfection.

"Slut, depression, anger, ugly, violent, sleaze'' the cuts got deeper.

I washed the blood of and looked at my cuts. I just thought about how stupid I was and cried trying to not let any one hear me. I cried my self to sleep.