I wish I could overcome them!
What if I wouldn't amount to anything?
What if I would just be someone from the crowd?
Have I kept my expectations too far?I wish I was prettier and cooler like them.
But I am supposed to be different.
Why do I feel this way so sudden?
Insecurity...No, I have never been jealous.
I am happy.
I don't know what I feel
And it's overwhelming.
How crazy is it that we don't see the good in ourselves?Vulnerable, easy to cry.
I am not strong though I wish I was.
Are my dreams like a pack of cards?
Tall but would crumble with a gust of wind.Been told I would be kind and loved.
What if one day I would be forgotten?
Need to learn to flow like wind.
Scattered papers everywhere just like me.
Each piece holding my reflection.Tears flow just like ink.
They would stop soon.
Mindlessly I write, maybe I should stop.Why is it so difficult to come out of my shell?
I made my own cage around me.
No, I am not heartless.
I do feel, I do care.
But I don't show, I cannot show.
I am not cold as you think.Messy on the outside,
Messy on the inside.
Emotions are up to the brim.
I can't pretend to close it.All of a sudden waves crash.
I do nothing but stand facing it
And ultimately submerge.
I don't know but I just feel too sad, not actually sad maybe overwhelmed or something. It's all just a mess and I wanted to let out.
What I even wrote is also this messy.
Smile, spread love and be kind
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Bhava
PoetryA collection of poems for Krishna as well as writing about my feelings and thoughts, my experiences and memories.