you Abandoned me not the other way around gon..

A rain that never leaves.

Two months have gone by since gon left, the first month had been really hard on killua, but none the less killua started to feel a tiny bit better, well. About gon leaving, killua mentally still felt as he did long before be even met gon. He thought he had changed, but that doesn't seem to be the case, killua was just as useless as he was back then, just as weak and stupid as always.
"Killua, hurry up leorio will leave us if you don't hurry the fuck up!" The white haired boys friend yelled from his living room, he sighed standing from his bed, he smiled best he could as he walked out of his room to the front door where his blond friend stood,
"Lets go pika, since you are so hell bent on seeing your boyfriend," he spoke walking past the slightly taller boy,
"Killua! He isn't my boyfriend"
Kurapika spoke startled.  Giving a shake of his head laughing slightly. Killua smiled as they walked laughing here and there, they both knew something was off about one another, but neither wanted to bring it up in fear of causing a fight.

"So why do you and leorio need me exactly? You guys just said on the phone you wanted to talk with me" killua spoke as they got in the car.
Kurapika's blond hair fell over his eyes as he started the car trying to avoid eye contact "i will tell you once we get to leorio" he spoke calmly, the white haired teen eyed the blonde suspiciously, there was something off about how the kurta was acting.
Killua sighed as he looked out the window watching the rain fall as his breath clouded the window. It had started getting colder during the day and even colder at night. Killua's apartment, not being the most insulated place ever, was very cold all the time, he never really noticed until now, seeing as it was warm in the car.
They drove in silence the rest of the drive, unspoken words remained ignored as they pulled up to an old beautiful park, 'i bet this place would look even better if it wasn't raining,' killua thought as he got out of the car.
Small rain drops hit his hair and jacket as he shivered slightly, "why are we meeting him in a park?...in the rain?.." Killua asked anger laced with his bitter sweet words, "don't ask me. He was the one to pick the spot," kurapika said as he and his white haired friend walked further from the car, "twenty bucks says he wanted to meet up here because of some chick" killua snickered
Gracing his lips with a cat like smirk,
Kurapika's eyes opened wide as if making a discovery, "Damn that pervert!" Kurapika spoke small sparks of humor and anger showed in his eyes.
Killua laughed loudly as they reached leorio. As the white haired boys laughter calmed he took a closer look at leorio, he looked concerned, stressed, and fearful. That wasn't like leorio

"What's up old man you look stressed"
Killua spoke with a cat like smirk
Leorio looked up from the ground
Making eye contact with the shorter man. His eyes showed complete seriousness, 'he didn't even comment on the old man thing this mist be serious' killua thought as he took a seat across from leorio, and kurapika next to him,
"So...killua..how are you?" Kurapika asked softly, killua looked at them suspiciously "yes.. I'm fine," kurapika
Looked at the smaller white haired boy
With a disbelieving look, killua angrily
Looked at kurapika. "Im fine! Ku-!" Before killua could say anything more
Leorio slammed his hand down on the the table that kept them a few feet apart, "DAMNIT KILLUA NO YOU'RE NOT!" The smaller white haired boys eyes widened slightly "killua you haven't been the same since he left!, you haven't even hung out with any of your friends!" Leorio yelled looking distressed at his younger friend
"Leorio, I. Am. Fine." The white
haired teen spoke coldly,
"Killua, I can see it in your eyes you are not okay!" The older man spoke concern laced in his words,
Killua looked off to the side a small spark of fear went through him as he remembered the last time gon went off by himself, "i'm.. Hanging out with my friend Joshua today leorio, you have nothing to be worried about,"
"I have every right to be worried!. Killua! You shut everyone out! Even when gon was here! You shut him out and kept him in the dark on how you TRULY felt!! Maybe that's why he left.."
Leorio shouted as he sat back down sighing. Killua's heart ached, 'i know....i know..' He thought sadly. He stood up

Glaring down at the table, "so.. I'm the reason he left?.. It was my fault?.." Killua stated blandly, "wait killua!-"
Without another word killua walked into the rain headed for God knows where, faintly killua could hear kurapika yelling at leorio, he didn't care, the thing that struck him, was he was the reasom.. His best friend abandoned him.. Deep down. He already knew that, he was the reason kurapika and leorio are fighting, he was the reason gon left him. He was the reason alluka left him..

He had No one left.
That made him even more dangerous,

No one to lose.

But. It also made him more weak.

As killua walked in the pouring rain
His vision fogged as he was lost in thought. Suddenly killua was on the ground, this taking him by surprise,
He shook his head and looked up at a tall figure that was repeating apologies.
He had a dark'ish blue jacket on and a black shirt under and black ripped skinny jeans, and soft looking black hair, "i... Sor.."
"I'm.....sor.!." "I'm so sorry!. I didn't mean to I promise!!" The man held out a hand for killua, the white haired boy blinked up at the stranger, then at his hand slowing and carefully taking his hand, as the stranger pulled killua up he extended his umbrella over the two of them smiling down at killua, 'damn this guy is tall' killua thought slightly annoyed, "im sorry about knocking you over! I really didn't mean too!"
He spoke with a sheepish smile his green eyes opened piercing killua's soul.  "Oh uh its alright, no worries"
The white haired teen spoke
Looking slightly to the side, "Oh it looks like the rain his getting heaver! I should probably get going!..do you need a ride killua?"

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