Paradise (Book One)

Stop And Stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...

"You're bad. Really bad."

"Am I?"

"Not really coz you fell hard naman in the end."

"So, what do you think I should do?"

"You have to decide first which is more important to you, avenging your father or loving her. Are you going to continue living in the past or are you going to start fixing your future?"

Natapos silang kumain at naihatid na rin niya sa bahay nito si Cristine, ang huling sinabi pa rin nito ang kumuktiltil sa utak niya.

He worked half of his life thinking and making money so he can avenge his father. It would go to waste if he chooses Asher. But he couldn't see any future anymore nang wala ang dalaga. Lately, he felt he's tired of what he's doing. Parang pakiramdam nya wala namang patutunguhan.

Kinokonsiyensys ba siya?

"Gago, bakit ka naman makukonsiyensya, eh wala ka namang ginagawa? Ipaghihiganti mo lang ang iyong ama sa masamang taong yun," sabi nang isang lalake.

"Walang maidudulot na maganda ang maghiganti lalo na kung sa taong wala namang kasalanan sa 'yo. Maibabalik ba ng paghihiganti mo ang iyong ama? Nangyari ang nangyari dahil may dahilan ang Itaas. Kung ano yun, hindi natin alam. Pero hindi tama ang maghiganti ka."

"O, isingit mo naman ang amo mo. Hindi ba pwedeng tayong tatlo lang involved dito? Talo ako nyan eh pag ginamitan mo na ng "Itaas". Anyhow, wag kang magpapaniwala dyan kay Migz, pare. Masarap maghiganti, lifting, ika nga! Dapat manghinayang ka sa mahigit sampung taon mong pagpaplano. Wag mong sayangin dahil lang sa lintik na pag-ibig kuno mong nararamdaman dun sa anak niya. At saka hitting two birds with one stone ka, brod pag ginamit mo si Asher. Nakapaghiganti ka na, natikman mo pa alindog nun, okay!"