Paradise (Book One)

Begin Again

Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do

Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

You said you never met one girl
Who had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do

But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did

I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

And we walked down the block to my car and I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies that your family
Watches
Every single Christmas and I want to talk about that
And for the first time what's past is past

'Cause you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months

Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

"What?!" namali yata nang dinig si Gerald.

"I'm asking if we can go home now. Bumalik na tayo sa Manila," ulit nang babae.

What is she up to, now?

Kanina lang parang game na game ito sa magiging little adventures nila. He was looking forward to this day pa naman.

He was expecting she would talk about last night pero mukhang hindi nga nito narinig ang sinabi niya. And when she went downstairs, parang walang nangyari kagabi.

He welcomed her flirtatious mood afterwards at ngayon, she's back to her old self? Yeah, he admitted he did not want her to be like other girls, but it was okay for her to be flirtatious, siguraduhin lang nito na sa kanya lang.

Nauubos na pasensya niya dito. Ganito ba talaga ito? O ganito lang ba talaga ang mga babae kapag binigyan mo ng atensyon? Parang ipu-ipo kung magbago ng isip? Do they intentionally make men's mind twisted?

Buti na rin lang pala at hindi nito narinig ang sinabi niya kagabi. Wala rin naman palang silbi yun.

Nadidismayang tumango na lang siya at walang salitang bumalik na sila sa sasakyan.

They passed by the reception to inform them of the cancellation.

Bago tuluyang umalis, "Should we go straight to Manila or gusto mo munang bumalik sa resthouse ninyo?"

"If you don't mind, magpapaiwan na muna ako sa resthouse. Me gagawin pa ako bago sunduin ni Mang Martin mamaya."

And now she's avoiding me! Great! "Fine, if that's what you want," walang emosyong sabi niya.

He drove back fast to her place. Ibinuhos niya sa pagmamaneho ang inis niya dito. Hindi naman naging delikado ang pagmamaneho niya kahit halos paliparin niya ang sasakyan. It was Sunday, middle of the day, it's a highway, so no traffic.