Heartless (Complete)

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Small talks

"I love your music so much, Miss Aella."I smiled to Jerry Gold. I was so greatful that finally, together. We're working.

It's always been my dream. He produce so many beautiful songs and I want one.

"Thank you. Mr. Gold."

Napatingin ako kay Keane na sinalinan ang kanyang shot glass ng liquor. Everytime he moves his biceps will look so good.

Napalingo-lingo ako dahil sa naiisip at baka malagot pa ako dahil sa pagtitig sa kanya.

Uminom naman si Mr. Gold ng white wine at tumingin sa akin na parang mangha pa."I remember Miss Aella, I heard this in the news..."Ngumisi siya at tumingin kay Keane pabalik sa akin.

Alam ko na ang pinahihiwatig niya. There's possible picture again tomorrow, I'm sure of that.

"Don't mention it."Keane drank his liquor and sarcastically smirked. He then gazed me."I'm sure someone's feeding your fan. Always on the articles because of that dating issue."I can't clearly hear his last line because his voice faded.

I frowned."And who would it be?"I asked sarcastically. Someone's feeding my fans? His not serious, aren't he. Damn.

Villa leaned on me and whispered."I need to go back to the Van to get something."Tumayo siya pag katango ko.

"I'll be back."

"Where are you?"Mr. Gold asked her.

"To the Van, I need to get something. If you'll excuse me, Mr. Gold."

Umalis si Villa matapos mag pa alam. Uminom ako ng isang shot glass ng tequila.

Muntik ko ng mabuga ang iniinom ko ng mag tanong si Mr. Gold ng tanong na hindi ko akalaing itatanong niya talaga.

"So, are you both really dating?"His voice were full of curiosity. I thought their friends?

Why not tell Mr. Gold.

"S-shit...shit."Sabi ko ng mahina matapos matapunan ng tequila ang legs ko. Mabuti nalang at naka pencil skirt ako.

"Are you okay, Miss Aella?"Mr. Gold asked.

Tumango ako."Yeah."

"Here."Napatingin ako kay Keane dahil sa pag sasalita niya. Nagdadalawang isip ako kung kukunin ko ba ang tissue na binibigay niya.

As a sign of peace. I need to take this tissue.

"Thanks."Hindi ako makatingin sa kanya pag katapos kong kunin ang tissue sa kamay niya.

Pinahiran ko na ang paa ko at tumingin sa dalawa."Sorry for that."

"Its okay, can someone answer my last question?"Mr. Gold really can't shut his fucking mouth.

Imbis na mag sasalita ako ay naunahan ako ni Keane."We aren't dating. Maybe soon."Natatawa niyang sabi habang ako ay hindi na komportable.

Anong maybe soon? Gago to ah!

Tumawa din si Mr. Gold dahil sa sinabi."Soon. Don't forget to invite me."

Kinuha ko ang shot glass at uminom agad ng tequila. They are crazy.

Napatingin ako kay Mr. Gold dahil sa tumutunog niyang phone. Sinagot niya ito at agad na umasin ang mukha.

"I'm sorry, but I need to go home. Emergency."Tumayo siya kaya Tumayo na rin ako.

"Thank you so much for coming Mr. Gold."

Ngumiti lang siya at tinapik ang balikat ni Keane bago nag mamadaling umalis.

Ang tagal naman kasi ni Villa. Pasado 10 na siguro ng umaga.

"Uuwi kang pilipinas ngayon?"He suddenly asked.

I looked at him curiously. Why can't I read him."Yeah."

He nodded and check his watch."I also have a flight today."He stated.

I bit my tongue and look at the table. I can't look at him. His to shiny to me.

"What about, Kyzo? When is he coming home?"

Talking casually is okay, so okay but it's uncomfortable.

Hindi ko pinahalatang kinabahan ako sabay tingin sa kanyang mga mata. I'm trying to hide all my emotion now while looking at him.

"His going back to the Philippines next month. I need know what date."

He nodded again."How are you?"His voice changed into sweet and serious one.

Not cold.

Nabigla pa ako. Kaya hindi agad ako nakasagot sa kanya buti nalang at hindi naman siguro niya halata na naiintimadate ako sa kanya.

"I'm fine, tired but it's okay. You?"I smiled. Hindi ko nalang iisipin ang mga bagay bagay na nag papa uncomfortable sa akin.

Maybe we both need this small talk.

"I'm having a hard time for the past few years."He said staring on my eyes."I'm too heartless."

Pumikit pikit ako dahil sa titig niyang walang katapusan. My heart is racing so fast. Nanlamig na din ako.

Para akong nakukuryente kakatitig din sa mga mata niya. Hindi ito maare, hindi ako marupok!

I smiled."Maybe not too heartless but super heartless."I whispered while looking into his eyes.

He should know. His heartless. How come he do those decisions? He hurt me big time at that time!

"I felt really sorry to the girl I hurt the most."I can hear sincerity.

I swallowed hard and look at away to him."Was your sorry can change the past?"I can feel my tears on the edge. Isang pikit ko lang tutulo na ito.

Sobrang na fru-frustrate din ako sa sarili ko dahil sa sakit na pinadama ni Keane sa akin noon mahal ko parin siya.

Hindi siya mawala-wala sa isip at puso ko. Ginawa niya yun dahil siguro may mga plano siya, ginawa niya yun dahil siguro hindi niya lang ako gustong masaktan ng grabi, ginawa niya yun dahil—yan, yan palagi ang nasa isip ko.

Defending him to my fucking self!

"No but I can...make it up to her, right now."

I bit my lower lip and breath deeply. His pertaining to me. That girl he said was me and also that 'her' was also me.

I smiled sadly. I can't hold my tears. They are flowing down."Will she like that idea?"

His maintaining his straight face. I can see a glint of sadness and guilt on his eyes."I don't know but I will try until she become soft again."

"Will she be able to forgive you?"Pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha habang tumitingin parin sa kanya.

"She will at the right time and place. She will. She's a kind-hearted person, loyal and very mean at the same time."

Dinilaan ko ang aking labi dahil nag dr-dry na siguro ito ngayon."She was."I whispered.

Talking about myself while using 'her', 'she' and girl was okay after all. It's not that awkward and uncomfortable but it hurts.

Ang sakit noon ay bumalik. Hindi ko Alam na pinagsisihan niya pala ang nangyari. Ang sakit lang dahil kay Chyna siya naniwala, pinaniwalaan niya ang kasinungalingan kaya ako nasaktan ng sobra.

Sa lahat ng sinabi niya sa akin ay yung ' Will you wait to me.' ang pinakasinguling. Nakakainis siya!

Pero bakit mahal ko parin siya?

Sa lahat ng sakit na ibinigay niya sa akin ay mahal ko parin siya.