Dalliance ➵ poems

changed

Something about you has changed,
And I don't quite know if it's a good change;
I do know it's what I wanted,
The friend I desired when I was taken for granted;
I can still recognize you but it's strange,
Seeing you from a different perspective,
Fueled by forgiveness instead of rage;
You gave off so many colors,
And I could only see the hues I chose;
Now it's like my eyes are finally opened,
Seeing things I was too intoxicated to notice before,
A sense of empathy in your words;
Don't get me wrong, I still stuck on the woes,
I can't bring myself to move away from the past,
Not when it's the only thing that lasts;
But I'm too far away from that ledge now to jump again;
I'm hopeful but not too much,
You're still the same cliff I fell into anyway,
Just a bit little less threatening,
Just a little more familiar;
I hope this is a new start,
Far away from the our past hostile start,
Of driving through rocky roads,
And walking through thunder and lightning;
I really wanted to be your friend,
More than I wanted us to be something more;
I just didn't know where to put myself,
For you didn't show me the way;
And perhaps now I do;
As far away as possible,
But just close enough for you to see,
Whenever my name crosses your mind;
I used to stand really near,
In the hopes my heartbeat would be loud enough for you to hear;
Now I realize I'm wrong,
For what I wanted you to see was something you fear;
On a second thought,
Maybe you've always been the same;
I was the one who changed, 
I was the one who knew;
I always wished we'd be on the same level,
And now it's finally true.